I wont try to defend myself.
I have been a moron and thats not in dispute.
But let me just give some extra details to my life...
22 years ago, for about 9 months, I was utterly ruined and I became homeless. I managed to claw my way back and about 12 years ago, I shared a small shop with a friend, and I was able after only a few years to sell the business. I had made a nice sum and I wanted to sit back and try a new career, and so I studied Evolutionary Biology.
6 years ago, however, I was run over by a bin lorry and I was both physically and mentally destroyed. I have made an astonishing recovery, from 4 breaks in my back and 3 in my spine, to a shattered pelvis and every rib and bone in both arms and legs, both kidneys ruptured, ( Forcing me to live through a dialysis machine) liver ripped in two, right lung popped out of my body along with the liver, my pancreas destroyed ( Now dibetic ) and my spleen removed, Iwas also told that I will probably never walk again.
However I have not used my wheelchair for 10 months now ( although I cannot walk far at all ) and due to what can only be described as torture by with-holding food and liquids from me, my kidneys bounced back ( Im on drugs for life and the kidneys will fail eventually, but for now... No more dialysis ) and so, I have received a massive compensation payout. Enough to buy myself a half million pound house, and while I can never ride a motorbike again, I do now own a Harley Trike and a Boom Trike.
While I was unable to drive, one friend drove me around and bent over backwards to help me out... For that I gave him a cheque for 5K and as he liked LandRovers, I bought him a LandRover... It was only a cheap one, well used, but it failed the MOT... He looked at it and he thought I was buying it for myself but I told the seller my mates name not mine and he was chuffed.
But since it failed the MOT, I then bought him a much newer Discovery3. He said he will pay me back, but after a year, I have not had a penny.
The computer taht the other guy had, was starting to show its age and so I didnt mind too much with it, but again, he has simply taken the pee in not paying, and non stop asking for more all the time... Even his missus laughs about me being their bank.
My sister is not even my sister... My mother took in foster children over some years and she stayed with her for about 5 months some 25 years ago or something, but she has no one at all, and the only family she has, seems to be me... but yeah, its cos she gets money off me.
Now, when I had the accident, I had brain damage. You dont smack into the side of a metal box without doing something and my head was wrecked and I have serious issues.
One of the things I now have is Dysexecutive Syndrome and it has symptoms that are very similar to PTSD ( and I also have that ) plus I have serious memory issues... I have a near photographic memory of my childhood, but I cannot remember what I did 5 minutes ago... I wil remember in a few days or weeks, but not things I do just now... Which is why I waffle like hell... To try to remember what I was doing.
But anyway, Im waffling... What I mean to say, is that I have or rather HAD a small fortune and so I helped friends and family out and it has got into a routine and now the money is almost gone, they are "used" to me giving them money.
The court case has very much knocked the wind out of me and given me one huge reality shock.
I cannot work ( although there must be jobs I can do surely ) but because I have a comfortable account, I get no benefits.
I was getting DLA but because I want to work, they stopped my DLA, even though I cannot walk more than about 30 feet without collapsing in agony, and so the ONLY money I have, is the compensation, and that was to be my retirement and pension, but its almost gone because I have to live.
Noww that I am calling on the people who owe me money, its quite magical how they melt into the scenery isnt it?