Feels like I'm going to break at the moment - just too much on to cope. Too many competing priorities, too many big projects to land and not enough hours to do it.
Trying to bring in interim resource to help me through, but can't find the perfect candidate so have to settle for the best we can do and I'm paralyzed by the worry that the candidate we bring in will need so much handholding that its not going to take any work off my plate and will just end up costing a fortune.
All my usual techniques for coping are not working, I can't make lists and prioritise tasks because everything is a priority, everything is either overdue or will soon be overdue and there is nothing I can do about it. Senior management are not helping, because they can't, they don't have the skill set or the understanding. I've been operating at the bleeding edge of my ability for so long now, I've learned so much and come so far but now the cracks are forming, and I don't think I can get to where I need to be in the time I have available.
Kicking myself for not taking that job offer 3 months back, not because I don't enjoy what I do, but just because its too much and its become so overwhelming.