I'm 17 with decent grades, but i feel my surroundings bring me down A LOT i get motivated to do things but as soon as i go ahead and do it something always gets in my way, or becomes out of reach. To the question your asking? no im not very optimistic, expecially after all the effort i put into nothing. I will always keep trying to strike my goal though in that sense i am optamistic. otherwise ill be living a blank dead dream.