Caporegime
Sorry to hear about this, I know exactly what you are experiencing. My cat and best friend of 12 years died 3 years ago and I still hurt every day depsite the time passed. Salem was the most beautifully natured cat I had ever encountered and watching him die by the fire place of a seemingly devastating heart attack will never leave my memory. Time will help but it will always hurt. Sorry for your loss.
Oh man, even I felt that, what a horrible way to see a loved one go