So ive decided to give up smoking, a habit i have to admit i some what enjoy
i am not a heavy smoker which is lucky for me, i also have a rule, never smoke within the first 5 hours of waking up, im not sure why i do this but i believe its helped a little as its not the first thing i reach for in the mornings like some heavy smokers, its probably the main reason why i haven't become a heavy smoker too.
that said, i have had several points today where i was ready to brutally beat to death anyone who spoke to me, including the cat. upon noticing my rather dramatic personality change i went out and bought a packet of patches without looking at the dosage. i plonked one on my arm and was violently sick within an hour, upon checking the dosage i realised they were 21mg patches, i.e. for a 40 a day smoker, which i am not.
so, im now sat here, with 1 quarter of a patch stuck to my arm, not feeling quite so agitated any more but DEAR GOD AM I BORED!!!
my games on my pc just don't seem that appealing to me, nor do the programs i usually watch and frankly im not sure what to do with myself or how to occupy myself.
im somewhat dreading going to sleep tonight as i know its going to be broken sleep from the moment i put my head down to the moment i get up in the morning
anyway, that's Day 1. will scribble something out for day 2 provided i haven't brutally beaten myself to death with my keyboard by then.
i am not a heavy smoker which is lucky for me, i also have a rule, never smoke within the first 5 hours of waking up, im not sure why i do this but i believe its helped a little as its not the first thing i reach for in the mornings like some heavy smokers, its probably the main reason why i haven't become a heavy smoker too.
that said, i have had several points today where i was ready to brutally beat to death anyone who spoke to me, including the cat. upon noticing my rather dramatic personality change i went out and bought a packet of patches without looking at the dosage. i plonked one on my arm and was violently sick within an hour, upon checking the dosage i realised they were 21mg patches, i.e. for a 40 a day smoker, which i am not.
so, im now sat here, with 1 quarter of a patch stuck to my arm, not feeling quite so agitated any more but DEAR GOD AM I BORED!!!
my games on my pc just don't seem that appealing to me, nor do the programs i usually watch and frankly im not sure what to do with myself or how to occupy myself.im somewhat dreading going to sleep tonight as i know its going to be broken sleep from the moment i put my head down to the moment i get up in the morning
anyway, that's Day 1. will scribble something out for day 2 provided i haven't brutally beaten myself to death with my keyboard by then.
I still crave a cig probably at least 20 times a day
