Bit of a random post after a few drinks, no set question more of a general musing. So I currently work in IT, Data specialism, have built up my career over the past 15 years or so. My head wants to give myself a jolly good slap - I earn more in a week than most do a month, it's not *that* horrendous like having to clean toilets with your tongue or something. Just keep plugging away and bringing home the bacon, maybe get to a position where you retire by 60 or whatever. My heart on the other hand, frequently says to me, WTF are you doing here, you have more enjoyment writing posts on OcUK, Discord, writing about sports, gaming, tech, whatever. At times I'm told I'm too verbose, I have a hundred things to say but people only want to hear 10 in a work environment. I do my work and the majority I am indifferent to or dislike. I'm much happier just at home with my kids, writing stuff on the internet or whatever. So where this leaves me is a crossroads; do I throw away a 15 year career and go for a reset? Take some naff job where I have an opportunity to write prose. Maybe take a huge punt and try to create a youtube channel or something. Either way I'm going to take probably an 80% pay cut. I'm sure others must have hit this position at some point. Maybe it's a mid-life crisis now I'm in my 40s. Maybe the pandemic has accelerated this sort of reflective thinking. It feels very very strange, because in prior years I've always said to people just follow the money, rake in the cash and then you have more options, earn the dough up front then you can choose what you want to do after. But now I'm in their shoes it feels different, I sit here thinking, do I want to spent another 10 years wasting my life away, health going downhill doing stuff that doesn't motivate me? Shouldn't I just go all-in, try and force my way into doing something else with all the opportunities the internet opens up, try and get to a position where I can earn 20% money but actually enjoy what I'm doing? And if it doesn't work out, nobody is interested, just fall back on the career experience and go back with my tail between my legs? Hmmmm.