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Been there, fella - I know exactly how you're feeling. My breakup with my partner of 25/26 years (married for 17 of them) is documented in this very thread. She pretty much did to me what yours did to you - said she still fancied me, but didn't love me in the way a wife should love her husband. It almost destroyed me and messed me up more than any other life event before or since.
I'd just like to echo what @bigmike20vt said because it is the way out of how you're feeling now. My family, friends and workmates have all, at various times, been the glue that's put me back together. You'll go through days where it will feel like a bereavement, but it's torture because you know full well that your GF isn't dead. When something happens that makes you happy, the person you'd normally have been the first to share it with is no longer there. It's brutal, it really is.
Cry if you want or need to - there is no shame in it, particularly if she was someone you loved or cared deeply for ... it's perfectly natural and perfectly human. Doesn't make you less of a man. Point is, find some way of venting the emotions you feel - bottling it up isn't healthy.
I know it's a cliche, but time really is a healer - there will be highs and lows as you recover. Initially the lows will outnumber the highs, but it does switch round over time and eventually the lows virtually disappear. How long that all takes depends on the individual - in my case it was 6-9 months. Just to make things even more awkward, that also included a spell where my missus and I were living like two strangers in our marital home, with me being made to feel that I should be elsewhere so she could have her boyfriend (acquired a mere two months after we separated - aren't women classy?) in the house.
Find a regular focus that will keep your mind occupied - in my case, I threw myself into weight-training for the first time in over 20 years, which benefitted both mind and body, but that might not suit everybody.
Keep posting here - this thread is full of blokes who've had relationship/marriage break-ups and it's fantastic support. At times like this it's very easy to think you're the only person in the world that this is or has happened to.
I'm happily single at the moment - being solely in charge of my own destiny and doing what I want when I want is so refreshing. I never thought I'd hear myself say it, being a complete and utter romantic, but I don't know if I COULD nor WANT to go back to a full-on relationship at this particular point in time. Technically I am still married - we hit the two-year separation deadline at the end of this coming August, which will make the matter of divorce that much easier. As for her, on the rare occasions I come face-to-face with her now, I can look her in the eye and feel nothing - not love, not lust, not hatred, just complete and utter indifference. That's when you know you're healed.
