Caporegime
If you’re arguing every week about the same stuff then you or her either aren’t pulling your weight (housework and things like that etc) or she’s the type who likes having drama.
From my point of view it's not about blaming one person or the other. But it's about finding a person you get along with. People are different and want different things. From her point of view she is right. But equally you have a valid point from your point of view. Unless you can come to a mutual agreement then it will simply cause arguments for the future. That's why I suggest having a long think, and a calm conversation, about what you each want. If you'e not compatible then so be it.Some valid points here, the argument is mostly about her saying I'm not putting enough effort in to the relationship, like I dont want to do anything or go anywhere , while there is some truth in it she's exagerating , I am up for going out sometimes but she just seems to want to go out far too much for my liking. I do like my own time somtimes (& no I dont want to be single). I'm a HGV driver so not keen on doing too much driving at a weekend.
Just to expand on my original post we probably argue a couple of times a month (I dont keep track so hard to say for sure), mostly when we are spending quite a bit of time together.
Some valid points here, the argument is mostly about her saying I'm not putting enough effort in to the relationship, like I dont want to do anything or go anywhere , while there is some truth in it she's exagerating , I am up for going out sometimes but she just seems to want to go out far too much for my liking. I do like my own time somtimes (& no I dont want to be single). I'm a HGV driver so not keen on doing too much driving at a weekend.
Just to expand on my original post we probably argue a couple of times a month (I dont keep track so hard to say for sure), mostly when we are spending quite a bit of time together.
So you're a HGV driver who spends a lot of time away presumably, then when you're back you want to relax and stay in which is understandable, and she wants to go out and do things because she's been bored at home all week which is also understandable. You need to compromise here and agree to go out at least every other week, go out and have a meal or go for a week, go to the cinema or something. Ultimately though your job is what's causing the strain. I don't know your situation but having a woman at home complaining she's bored and stuck in the house can ultimately lead them to finding someone else to go out and do things with.
It will get easier, it just takes time. If you had stayed together, the relationship would still have been broken, it might have affected the child further down the line too.
I watched my parents destroy their relationship after my sister and I left home... Mum always at my dad for something, him retreating further and further away emotionally. One day he'd had enough and left. They should have sought help sooner or parted ways sooner. Would have saved much hurt and their sanity.
That's the question I always ask myself if only we got help sooner rather than the rocky final year we had. Repeating past scenarios, feeling jealous of what could have been and instead someone else has.
I was in the lakes yesterday and seen a family playing by the water and I instantly thought is that what I've walked away from.
I'd love to forget her but so many things remind me of what once was. I need to also purge my google photos of all my photos as I keep getting memory updates also which doesn't help. That's going to be a long and painful task I think.
Why didn't the relationship work?
She was just on my back all the time. I hit a low point and lacked motivation so that didn't help. Went on holiday with her and her parents and all she tried to do was make a mug of me in front of them and the whole thing was tense. I admit I didn't help matters as I went full insecure mode so on the last day I called it over and said I was leaving once we got home. I felt liberated at first. I guess I'm maybe forgetting so much of the bad stuff. I'm not one to hold grudges and I would rather remember the good times as we had loads.
She obviously didn't feel the same way about you, as she had this guy in the wings for long enough that she got into a relationship with him as soon as the one with you finished. That was probably the reason she made a concerted effort to make life miserable for you ie, so you would leave, she could blame you, and then start over with this next guy she had on tap. You were probably manipulated by her into leaving the relationship. By the end, she just wanted you out.
I've rang every scenario through and this has weighting. The fact we didn't have sex for the last month, granted 2 weeks of it we were on holiday sharing a room with her son but there were all sorts of little things.
The fact also this is most likely true makes it all the more frustrating that I can't get her out of my head when she doesn't deserve to be in it.
You're obviously not happy.
It's not because you're missing your ex. You're missing aspects of being in a relationship and she was the last one you were in one with.
You're obviously not going to get back in a relationship with her so she's not a solution to your unhappiness.
Forget her and focus on your finding that solution. Look at yourself and find out what you want to change, make that your goal and start the road to achieving it.
I've rang every scenario through and this has weighting. The fact we didn't have sex for the last month, granted 2 weeks of it we were on holiday sharing a room with her son but there were all sorts of little things.
The fact also this is most likely true makes it all the more frustrating that I can't get her out of my head when she doesn't deserve to be in it.
Believe me I've tried and yeah you're right I'm not happy. I dropped so many of my friends, some for the right reasons others not over the years of being with her. I find myself lacking those friendship circles I once had so many of and feel sort of lonely at times which doesn't help. Seeing a family at the weekend playing I kind of had feelings of missing that feeling. I tried dating and all it did was make me think of her, comparing sex to with her and not being the same then I'd mess my head up more for putting myself in that situation or thinking of her. It also wasn't fair on the girl I was dating so called it off and truthfully told her the reason why, not long before Christmas which I also felt harsh about doing but didn't want it stringing on further.
I guess it will just take time. I'm past the worst part being Christmas now so only way it up.
Appreciate the responses