Looking back I think I've always suffered from these feelings, but it took me till my late teens to actually realise what it was - social anxiety.
Basically, I always feel like I'm doing / saying the wrong thing around people (even friends and family I've known for years). I try and think rationally and convince myself otherwise however when I'm speaking to people I just can't get the thoughts out of my head.
I guess part of it is low self esteem? I'm 22 and own my own house and car and deep down I am proud of what I've achieved but in day to day life it just feels like what's the point, I could own 10 houses but I'm still not "happy".
I smoked cannabis for 3-4 years which was my way of "switching off" but in the end all that did was make me more anxious / paranoid. I stopped that 4 months ago and in all honestly I don't feel any benefits from doing so, other than the fact I've saved a bit of money.
I've been to various doctors, organised therapy and counseling off my own back but nothing seems to "work". I don't like the idea of anti-depressants and from friends experiences they haven't really helped them at all.
I find it hard to remain positive about beating this - noticing no benefits from quitting cannabis has upset me, I thought that'd go a long way to "solving" things but obviously not.
Slightly long reply but hey.
Edit: I eat healthily and go the gym 3-4 weeks and find that hasn't worked any wonders either.