When I was 3 years old my best friend was a girl. I spent all day with her and we used to kiss in the pram.
One day at play school we were playing with bricks with the teacher and the game was boring me, and then she looked at me and smiled, so I grabbed her and kissed her. It was amazing, I had no concept that she might reject it or anything, no hesitation, it was just natural to me that if she smiled then I should kiss her. Anyway I got sent to the naughty corner for doing it by the teacher and I started crying.
She left and moved to Ireland when I was 4 and I saw her again when I was 11 or something but I didnt speak to her. She left me with her goldfish that I looked after until I was 16. So in my room I always had a reminder of her
I am certain this experienced has ruined my love life now as an adult. Its like Im in search of an identical replacement for her