It's your 100% certainty I find more disturbing than anything else,
You're absolutely 100% totally convinced beyond all doubt that God is there and he's watching you right now, that he listens to your prayers, is there for you 24/7, watches over you when you're having a ****, etc etc, if you win the lottery - you'll thank god, if you get diagnosed with a serious illness - you'll pray to god for a cure, it goes on and on and on.
I have faith in various things, (my personal abilities, friends, loved ones etc) but I do not understand the sort of 100% blind faith that you place in god, it scares me a bit, that someone can get so caught up in something, not because of the unending and boring "does god exist or not" debate, but simply because it's not even up for discussion with you. I don't see any possible reasonable train of events (other than indoctrination or stupidity) that could place a person in this position.
For you the question is not whether he's there or not, it's "he's there, for me. end of."
I don't think i'll ever understand..