Hello chaps!
I thought I'd take the time to vent and take in some opinions and thoughts on something that has been on my mind heavily for the past three months and am open enough to speak about it to you guys. A bit of back story on myself, I am 19, have been in full time employment for 2 years, in a long'ish term relationship (4 years) an interest in computers/games, a big lover of music in the house/garage scene and am not ashamed to admit an mdma user in a decent caring friend circle on the weekends (mentioned this as it may hold some key points for discussion).
So as a usual lad growing up going through school and a year at college which I scrapped to achieve very little in and was kicked out after the first year, I found myself with not a lot of options but knew I wanted to get out of education and in to something fulfilling and worthwhile. I spent 6 months working in Tesco to be able to earn my own money and decided to put myself forward at the local job centre to push for a career. This luckily got me an interview at my current place of work - Starting off as an apprentice in the 1st line operations department which covers remote IT/Voice support for our client base on a first call basis, I cannot stress how much I have thrived as a person and my Cisco, Aastra & Microsoft knowledge has come on great I feel I have progressed greatly. 4 pay rises + completing my apprenticeship and a year and half later I feel I have hit the wall. My desire to improve at work and as a person is now non-existent, over the past 6 months I have gotten myself in to some debt with gambling and poor money management & believe I am suffering with a form of depression in some regard - It's the stress that is really doing me in. I wake up a lot of time and just think I should do something completely different and pack it in.
I have spoken to colleagues/mates at work and I have outlined my lack of motivation and general drive for the job, they see it as well I am dead quite at work, just get on with it and aren't coming out of my shell as much as I used to because I just don't enjoy it - The misses is great and is telling me to pull myself together as there are people in far worse situations than I am.
In short, I have put a lot of pressure on myself to be the best I can possibly be but am burnt out at this point at the tender age of 19 which I am sure seems ridiculous.
I thought I'd take the time to vent and take in some opinions and thoughts on something that has been on my mind heavily for the past three months and am open enough to speak about it to you guys. A bit of back story on myself, I am 19, have been in full time employment for 2 years, in a long'ish term relationship (4 years) an interest in computers/games, a big lover of music in the house/garage scene and am not ashamed to admit an mdma user in a decent caring friend circle on the weekends (mentioned this as it may hold some key points for discussion).
So as a usual lad growing up going through school and a year at college which I scrapped to achieve very little in and was kicked out after the first year, I found myself with not a lot of options but knew I wanted to get out of education and in to something fulfilling and worthwhile. I spent 6 months working in Tesco to be able to earn my own money and decided to put myself forward at the local job centre to push for a career. This luckily got me an interview at my current place of work - Starting off as an apprentice in the 1st line operations department which covers remote IT/Voice support for our client base on a first call basis, I cannot stress how much I have thrived as a person and my Cisco, Aastra & Microsoft knowledge has come on great I feel I have progressed greatly. 4 pay rises + completing my apprenticeship and a year and half later I feel I have hit the wall. My desire to improve at work and as a person is now non-existent, over the past 6 months I have gotten myself in to some debt with gambling and poor money management & believe I am suffering with a form of depression in some regard - It's the stress that is really doing me in. I wake up a lot of time and just think I should do something completely different and pack it in.
I have spoken to colleagues/mates at work and I have outlined my lack of motivation and general drive for the job, they see it as well I am dead quite at work, just get on with it and aren't coming out of my shell as much as I used to because I just don't enjoy it - The misses is great and is telling me to pull myself together as there are people in far worse situations than I am.
In short, I have put a lot of pressure on myself to be the best I can possibly be but am burnt out at this point at the tender age of 19 which I am sure seems ridiculous.
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