Anorexia and bulimia

I suffered with Anorexia for 2 years after losing 10stone healthily etc, then just took it too far for many reasons......

The excited and addition of losing
Discovering I can actually exercise
Scared of putting on weight
The love of control etc

Well that was 2 years ago and even now I still have a lot of what I call "Ticks" with food etc, things ill do without releasing and only by thinking about it I can stop. It really is a sucky sort of sickness as you know you are doing harm but just can't stop it.....

I now have mostly sorted things now, except my routine OCD and exercise etc, for example if there is a reason why I can't go swimming in the morning I will get abit agitated and stressed by such a simple little thing....
 
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Matutu said:
I suffered with Anorexia for 2 years after losing 10stone healthily etc, then just took it too far for many reasons......

The excited and addition of losing
Discovering I can actually exercise
Scared of putting on weight
The love of control etc

Well that was 2 years ago and even now I still have a lot of what I call "Ticks" with food etc, things ill do without releasing and only by thinking about it I can stop. It really is a sucky sort of sickness as you know you are doing harm but just can't stop it.....

I now have mostly sorted things now, except my routine OCD and exercise etc, for example if there is a reason why I can't go swimming in the morning I will get bait agitated and stressed by such a simple little thing....
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Why did you start dieting?
 
Burnsy2023 said:
Why did you start dieting?
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I was 21 Years old and 22 stone.... 44" waist.....

Never really bothered me, except one night when I was out on a works do in Plymouth. It was late and I was very drunk at the time, walking down the street with colleagues, and a young lad walked past and turn and shouted back to me "Yo you FAT ****" and I couldnt say anything back, forgot about it and moved on.

Next morning I woke up with only his words in my head and I thought "You really could say nothing back as he is the first person who has actually been honest with you in years!". Thats when I decided to change.

In a way which I could go back and say Thanks to the guy lol.
 
Burnsy2023 said:
So I suppose a fear of losing control and gaining weight without being able to stop is a big fear?
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Yes I suppose so, I will always in a way look at myself and see that old person in the mirror looking back at me...... Even when I got to 7stone and my ribs and every bone was showing I was sure in my head I was still "Fat" etc etc.
 
I'm still recovering from Anorexia. I was quite chunky as a kid, so when I was around 19 I decided to try and lose some weight.
I did this mainly through cutting out foods and meals, rather than exercise / proper diet. At my lowest point I weighed just under 6st. I loved all the comments about how much weight I was loosing, and I guess I just wanted the good feedback to continue. I have always had a low opinion of my personal appearance, so to get people complimenting me on my appearance really felt good. However whenever I looked myself in the mirror, I still saw a fat boy!
I got to the point where my family were especially worried about my health; I was only eating around 2 meals a week by this point, so they pleaded with me to seek medical advice.

I'm now 25, and a reasonably healthy 10.5st weight. I do still struggle tbh, but I'm far more concious of what I need to do to stay healthy. For some reason I still can't eat anything on a Saturday, I physically feel sick if I do, but I'm working on it. I'm still not happy with my personal appearance, and I guess until I am I won't fully recover, but I'm certainly in a much better place now.
 
edscdk said:
is it a medical problem? its mostly a rich western person with nothing to worry about other than their body image issue... after limited reading (60seconds) its only a modern thing in the past it was done but usually for social / religous / misguided (as in they thought it would improve health) reasons...
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Many things in the past, that are now viewed as medical conditions were put down to religion. I'm quite sure that anorexia/bulimia exists outwith the Western world as well. I'm not sure the point of your post, are you trying to say that because anorexia/bulimia (and the opposite) isn't a 'real' problem because it is prevalent in the rich Western world?

Castiel said:
He wasn't being honest...he was being a jerk.
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Totally disagree. Sure, the guy was being a bit inappropriate and rude. However, we constantly hear about the medical profession unable to be honest with people because everything under the sun is a medical condition and it isn't their fault. Sometimes it's good that someone is upfront and frank with you as it makes you realise there is a problem.
 
Matutu said:
I was 21 Years old and 22 stone.... 44" waist.....

Never really bothered me, except one night when I was out on a works do in Plymouth. It was late and I was very drunk at the time, walking down the street with colleagues, and a young lad walked past and turn and shouted back to me "Yo you FAT ****" and I couldnt say anything back, forgot about it and moved on.

Next morning I woke up with only his words in my head and I thought "You really could say nothing back as he is the first person who has actually been honest with you in years!". Thats when I decided to change.

In a way which I could go back and say Thanks to the guy lol.
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Castiel said:
He wasn't being honest...he was being a jerk.
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He was being both, Didn't happen down Union Street by any chance did it?
 
Burnsy2023 said:
The bit in bold is why this thread exists. I want to start to understand the thought root processes which often lead to this condition. Control seems to be a big part, as does self esteem. The bit ANother mentioned about unstable family life etc also seems pretty plausible. If I can get to the point where perhaps I can understand why it happens, it might be easier to support someone who wants to recover.

Also, lets avoid the jokes people, this thread isn't the time or place.
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Fair point. In my experience ive known one recovered anorexic whose excuse was that she didn't like the texture of food and didn't like eating nothing to do with self image - mental condition without any apparent triggers. The other girl I was talking about was bullied a bit but there was no great trauma in her life either, both are physically attractive.

IMO triggers are trauma or just the way someone is wired. Like no matter how depressed I get I could never bring myself to take my own life because im just not wired that way.

People have a tendency to eat fatty foods because it's an inbuilt instinct from the early days of man when they had to eat a lot of fatty foods as they did not know when their next meal would come. I read an American scientists report once that proved the human sense of smell prioritises fatty foods (although it was an American scientist so probably bull). In the western society with an abundance with fatty foods the issue comes down to control as you said.

Perhaps that is the only link between obesity and bulemia, in that in some circumstances people from both classification may have inbuilt urges that they cannot control.

Anorexia on the other hand is a totally different creature as it can rarely be controlled without outside intervention.

Bulemia is still massively misunderstood and rarely recognized in modern society
 
Much to do with over-eating is related to childhood from what I've seen.

Children are given sweets at Christmas, chocolate at Easter, a cake for birthday, a party at some fast-food joint as a reward etc.

In society we turn food, something which we need for survival into a reward for children - parents are directly building the association between food & happiness - which is why so many comfort eat nowadays.

I strongly believe that food should never be used as a reward or punishment in children, as it over-inflates the importance of it& has the potential to unbalance a child's attitude towards eating in later life.

I only gained weight because I really love the taste of beer, no excuses for me - I don't have any unhealthy relationships with food from childhood.
 
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thinspiration .. lol I done learnt a new thing today.
 
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