Some of you may remember my post a few weeks ago http://forums.overclockers.co.uk/showthread.php?t=17620046&page=2&pp=30
Well here is a bit of an update:
I was asked by my ex to move out because i was stressing her out and making her ill. I did this two Sundays ago. On the next saturday i was round doing her a favour on the house because her brother had attempted to do something and messed it up.
Whilst i was there i was looking for some documents, of which i cam accross a peice of paper with the name of her ex boyfriend on it. Odd i thought, so i ead it a bit, it was from her mate in the US who wrote "I don;t blame you for meeting up with him" This made my heart sink, as i know she would have done this when we were still together.
The next day i went back to get some more things, but when i walked through my front door, i saw a random bloke, sat in my house with my girlfriend. Normally i would have kicked seven bails of **** out of this bloke, but i didn#t i said hi and went upstairs. I was shaking and upset and didn't know what to do. I left shortly after still in a state of shock
I questioned her about both of the things, she said she met up with her ex to tell him to leave her alone, because he was writting to her.
I questioned who he was and what happened with this bloke, as i thought i had a right to know. She said nothing happened, i alled her bluff and she admitted she was up to no good in my house, a kiss as far as i know but it could have been more. I had only been gone 6 days!!
I met up with her the next evening for a meal, i told her i still loved her, missed her dearly and wanted to see if we could try again slowly, just doing things together once a week and see what happens, she said she didn't want to, which made me feel even worse. Being the idiot i am i also bought her gift, which i did on a frequent occassion. I don't know why i did it this time either. Also when i moved out i took my PC with me, which she said she needed to use, so i got a laptop (borrowed) and put everything on it she needed and setup the internet.
I know i still want her back and it is driving me nutts. I don't kno0w if i could go back with her now after this has happened, but i still miss her. I don't feel like eating and i can't sleep. I am lucky that i have got a lot of good mates who have taken me out and got me wrecked. The last two nights were great while they and the alcahol lasted.
Am i waisting my time in trying to get her back? Is what i am feeling normal...? I don't know how much more i can go on feeling like this. It's warping me.
I apreciate any comments. Sorry for rambeling, but it feels good to type out what has happened and how i am feeling.
Well here is a bit of an update:
I was asked by my ex to move out because i was stressing her out and making her ill. I did this two Sundays ago. On the next saturday i was round doing her a favour on the house because her brother had attempted to do something and messed it up.
Whilst i was there i was looking for some documents, of which i cam accross a peice of paper with the name of her ex boyfriend on it. Odd i thought, so i ead it a bit, it was from her mate in the US who wrote "I don;t blame you for meeting up with him" This made my heart sink, as i know she would have done this when we were still together.
The next day i went back to get some more things, but when i walked through my front door, i saw a random bloke, sat in my house with my girlfriend. Normally i would have kicked seven bails of **** out of this bloke, but i didn#t i said hi and went upstairs. I was shaking and upset and didn't know what to do. I left shortly after still in a state of shock
I questioned her about both of the things, she said she met up with her ex to tell him to leave her alone, because he was writting to her.
I questioned who he was and what happened with this bloke, as i thought i had a right to know. She said nothing happened, i alled her bluff and she admitted she was up to no good in my house, a kiss as far as i know but it could have been more. I had only been gone 6 days!!
I met up with her the next evening for a meal, i told her i still loved her, missed her dearly and wanted to see if we could try again slowly, just doing things together once a week and see what happens, she said she didn't want to, which made me feel even worse. Being the idiot i am i also bought her gift, which i did on a frequent occassion. I don't know why i did it this time either. Also when i moved out i took my PC with me, which she said she needed to use, so i got a laptop (borrowed) and put everything on it she needed and setup the internet.
I know i still want her back and it is driving me nutts. I don't kno0w if i could go back with her now after this has happened, but i still miss her. I don't feel like eating and i can't sleep. I am lucky that i have got a lot of good mates who have taken me out and got me wrecked. The last two nights were great while they and the alcahol lasted.
Am i waisting my time in trying to get her back? Is what i am feeling normal...? I don't know how much more i can go on feeling like this. It's warping me.
I apreciate any comments. Sorry for rambeling, but it feels good to type out what has happened and how i am feeling.
