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It's social, i spend most of my time out in town either talking to people or dancing with people, please, enlighten me to how it is not social.
You say yourself that you are "battered". That isn't social, even if it is done with other people.
Right so i don't have drug habbits,
Yes you do. You use alcohol regularly, frequently and in sufficient quantity to get extremely drunk. That is a drug habit. You smoke. That is a drug habit.
i take drugs sometimes, try it see if i like it, I socialise whatever i'm doing,
You're with other people, which isn't the same thing.
Yes you do, with your drug habits.
You smoke. Unless you never do it anywhere near anyone else, you are harming them too.
(maybe my health, but thats my choice).
Yes, it is your choice to harm yourself with your drug habits. Did I say someone else was making you do it?
If you smoke, you smell. You may not notice it, but you do.
And yes, i am talking about those sad shut ins who never go out and party.
People who can find something interesting to do without having to drug themselves. People who don't have harmful drug habits. So why are they "sad" and you aren't?
It's a release too, my town has sod all to do really, a youth club one night a week and it's pretty boring to be honest, only on til about 9 oclock and then what have we got to do?
Drugs, obviously.
Not really, no.
You're saying that your life is too boring to be lived without drugs.
That's the problem, not the lack of a youth club. What makes you think it will be any different in years to come?
Money in itself is useless, and if you save it, it's doing nothing, if you but material things they'll only be around for a few years, but the good memories i have will be with me til i die. And I wanna be on my deathbed thinking "Christ, i've done loads" and die, even if i do die young i believe life is supposed to be lived as well as possible regardless of the implications.
You haven't "done loads". You've got very drunk, repeatedly.
I guess you must be kind of traditional, but me, i'm new age and i've yet to think "I should get healthy so i can die in my hundreds in a wheelchair and crapping my pants with no funny stories to tell" i'll worry about that when i'm old.
Is it better to die in your 50s, having suffered for years in crap health and boring everyone with your stories about how drunk you were when you went nowhere and did nothing, living with much less fun stuff so that you can pay for your booze instead?