Contentment.

[Mr.Pink]

I am going to struggle to put the feelings i have into words, and i am just wondering if anyone has smilar feelings. Ever since i was about 18, (nearly 20 years ago!) i always had the thinking that something was missing from my life.

I could never put my finger on it, but i would know what it was, once i had it, and then i would start relaxing, and enjoying life. It could have been job related, relationship, finances, security...i didnt have a clue.

The mystical 'missing something' has never been solved. In those 18 years i have progressed career wise and am fairly happy with my work. I have two children, and a beautiful girlfriend, i have had holidays to europ and the states. I own my own house and am able to meet all the repayments and bills. I would say have enjoyed life, but have never really had one of those moments were you sit back in a chair and think " this is great - i am really happy".

Now the above probably sounds really selfish, i certainly am not complaining, i just want to stop thinking that the answer is 'just round the corner' and that its actually right before my eyes. I don't know how to feel content with what i have.

Does anyone understand what i'm on about?

 

[Mr.Pink]

Thanks for all the help guys!.

I really wish i had gone backpacking years ago, but i never had the confidence to go anything alone back then.

I will check out the Bronson book. Anthing that gives me an insight to this would be useful.

I haven't considered church, i didn't have a religious upbringing and i have a bit of a problem with some of the idealogy.