i really dont know why i do this every time i feel the need to, but i find writing to complete strangers with their own thoughts and feelings comforts me, it makes me realise i am not alone.
as some of you might know my dads terminally ill, he was diagnosed in august 2009 but was suspected may to have cancer, it was stage 5 cortical adrenal cancer, very very care and only 1 in 5 million get this cancer if i believe im right. the primary was in his adrenal glands, it had metastasised to his neck, lung, stomach and back.
he battled and battled and they gave him 3 months, told him to enjoy christmas and everything beyond was a bonus. he kicked it in the balls though, went on a trial and everything shrunk by 50%.
unforutunately in the past year his heart wasnt strong enough to cope with the one chemo we think was doing all the work (drrubicin?) he was also on mitotane too. so he had to stop those, hes slowly deteriorated but kept up his spirits, and fought and fought and fought. hes cracked jokes and smiled and been a brave little man.
a few weeks ago he fell ill, and he had a scan, we were awaiting a drugs trial at the end of march, bleeding in his stomach etc. unfortunately, the cancer had spread to his bones and liver, the later stages of this kind of disease, hes had some radiotherapy but sadly its spread to his ribs, chest, kidneys, pelvis, back and spine. because of his ulcers in his stomach they cant give him steroids, and are very limited with pain relief, hes ofiicially on morphine and ketamine.
got a call this morning, hes got a few days left and hes not going to make it, i dont think its hit me yet but i have to stay strong for the family.
i just wondered if anyone could give any words of comfort, it really does hurt.
im sorry for writing this thread or bringing down someones day, i just felt i had to get this off my chest and as i visit this board everyday, i thought it was a good thing to do.
as some of you might know my dads terminally ill, he was diagnosed in august 2009 but was suspected may to have cancer, it was stage 5 cortical adrenal cancer, very very care and only 1 in 5 million get this cancer if i believe im right. the primary was in his adrenal glands, it had metastasised to his neck, lung, stomach and back.
he battled and battled and they gave him 3 months, told him to enjoy christmas and everything beyond was a bonus. he kicked it in the balls though, went on a trial and everything shrunk by 50%.
unforutunately in the past year his heart wasnt strong enough to cope with the one chemo we think was doing all the work (drrubicin?) he was also on mitotane too. so he had to stop those, hes slowly deteriorated but kept up his spirits, and fought and fought and fought. hes cracked jokes and smiled and been a brave little man.
a few weeks ago he fell ill, and he had a scan, we were awaiting a drugs trial at the end of march, bleeding in his stomach etc. unfortunately, the cancer had spread to his bones and liver, the later stages of this kind of disease, hes had some radiotherapy but sadly its spread to his ribs, chest, kidneys, pelvis, back and spine. because of his ulcers in his stomach they cant give him steroids, and are very limited with pain relief, hes ofiicially on morphine and ketamine.
got a call this morning, hes got a few days left and hes not going to make it, i dont think its hit me yet but i have to stay strong for the family.
i just wondered if anyone could give any words of comfort, it really does hurt.
im sorry for writing this thread or bringing down someones day, i just felt i had to get this off my chest and as i visit this board everyday, i thought it was a good thing to do.
