Damn it all to hell!

sarutobi

sarutobi

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Whats even the ****** point!? Seriously... life: why even try? Your one chance at TRUE happiness and its all taken from you.

Sure theres small bits of happiness now and then but that ONE thing will always be gnawing at my heels all through my life. I never even got a chance to try, NO from the get go it was decided i was only gonna get a very small taster of true happiness. And its a taste that lingers, nothing can wash away this taste.

I'll ALWAYS be left wanting more and it will be there forever right infront of me but never reachable. Like a damn hologram. No matter how hard i try to reach out for it, it will NEVER be mine. Someone else will get it, they wont appreciate or treat it as well as i will or do. They wont even LOVE it any where NEAR as much as I would and do.

The worst thing is that this thing is the best thing in my life right now :(
 
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lay-z-boy said:
You can't have everything but you can get close to it. :D
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This is the ONLY thing i want. If i lost everything else (money, home, security, health. hell even friends and family) but I had this it would still be true happiness.

El Gringo said:
The last malteser and my friend ALWAYS takes it... Git.

There are many more packets, though!
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im talking about the best packet there will ever be.
 
ive already said its a girl

i know im only 18 and have a lot of life to live, but this is the one thing im sure about. You ever get that where you just KNOW
 
[TW]Fox said:
It's blatantly a girl. You'll find another one.

She'll have dumped you after 6 months anyway, they always do at that age.

The whole life changing stuff is just complete crap though. Get a grip and stop insulting those with REAL life changing problems.
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maybe i was too poetic or cryptic for you, but i never said this has ruined my life. read it carefully, all i said was that this is gonna stick with me for life, it hasnt ruined my life. i just know that from now on im always goin to think life could be better.
 
Zefan said:
It can always be better, get used to the fact that there are some things you cannot control and he's right, you will get over her far quicker than you imagine, believe me.
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believe me i wont, shes my best friend, we're goin to the same uni.

i dont wanna stop being her best friend.
 
malolo said:
If you've even remotely hinted that you feel that strongly then it's no wonder that she's not interested.

You don't sound like someone who has the emotional maturity to be able to handle a relationship if you think that's a rational thought to be having when nothing has even happened between you.
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i know i sound emotionally immature, but this is me being cathartic, a complete outpouring of emotion.

ive had a small taste = things have happened to a degree

geez its not bloody shakespeare
 
[TW]Fox said:
It makes you look daft. Get a grip.
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im not being cathartic to look cool, i dont care what i look or sound like IM BEING CATHARTIC!!! im just letting everything out

you know, so it dosnt all build up, to help me get over it a bit, man i know its not the end of the world. i can still be happy and i will be. but i will always have that lingering taste (memories/thoughts) of her.
 
Zefan said:
What's that supposed to mean?

I have been through far worse than what you're going through, and 6 months after I couldn't care less about it all.
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different events and different people, i meant im not like all other people.
its good that you got over it, i hope i can. and i probably will. but ill still always be thinking "if only".
 
Morba said:
get over it tbh. plenty of better women out there.
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there really isnt, not for me anyway

not many people ever met their dream girl, im lucky enough to be friends with mine

shame thats as far as itll go
 
[TW]Fox said:
Stop being so neive. There are loads out there. You've just not met them yet.

Oh, there won't be any for you if you keep acting so wet, though, so you'd better get it together :p



Seriously dude, you've not even had a relationship with her how do you know she's a dream girl?

This is all rather silly.
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CATHARSIS!!!!! argh! how many times

this isnt my public or even private self. this is my mind flowing into words
 
[TW]Fox said:
I get it, I just think it's very sad.
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you obviously dont

right this is my last go at an explanation

this threads original post was me letting everything on my mind flow all at once, to get it out in the open so it dosnt all build up. this thread only, no where else.

im not really like this. im not an emo, i dont make statements with my fashion or seek attention.

i just wanted to get something off my chest thats all, who cares if it sounds soppy and lame and cheesy. this also means that since it built up inside it wasnt on the outside, it wasnt shown.
 
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