Depression

nightrider1470 · 4 Jun 2014 at 09:03

Does anyone else suffer with depression?

I honestly think I have suffered with it for years but never knew. I had bit of a breakdown last week over some bad news that most people would probably have a few negative thoughts about, then move on.

For 3 days I stressed and worried, couldnt eat and would always wake up earlly hours of the morning, stessing, crying. Even feel guilt of things I did in a relationship that ended months a go. It was only my sister who recognised that how I reacting wasnt normal and to the doctors I went.

I am currently on antidepressant on my 3rd day.

I bought a book recently which has been amazing! And made sense if it all for me and kept me in control. The book highlights that only the strong minded people suffer with depression, as they take to much on, going and going. Where as the weak give in straight away.

Looking back I never used to go out my house that much where I lived alone, if only to the gym and to take my daughter out.
I struggled with feelings at times in relationships doubting if I trully loved them.

Has anyone else or a family member suffered?

Feel happy I have found out now so I can make the changes I need to keep me on track. My depression was defo due to stress of my job and relationship breakdown

nightrider1470 · 4 Jun 2014 at 10:04

How to tell the difference between anxiety and depression?

nightrider1470 · 5 Jun 2014 at 16:30

What tiggered my deep depression was finding out my ex had moved on with someone else 3 months after we split. I just couldnt handle it and its what led to me going the doctors.

Whats hard and confusing now, is my mind keeps thinking of all the bad things I said to her and walking away as I told her I didnt love her.

Now I feel so much guilt and super low all the time, even convincing myself I love her, unable to feel the reasons why I walked in the first place....Yes she has every right to move on and is probably better off! But my mind wont eccept that and keeps haunting me with everything negative.

I have an amazing daughter, home, family and am a dont seem to struggle with dates or women liking me in that area, but just feel like I will never meet someone, but worse of all I wont feel love for them and be able to have a functional relationship as I feel "empty"

nightrider1470 · 5 Jun 2014 at 17:43

Thanks!

I just had a good read of an article. Low serotonin levels in the brain linked with depression will haunt you of past guilt and your greatest fears.

At least I can relax knowing my negative thoughts is the depression and not my true honest thoughts.

Its so hard!! By tomorrow I will forget this and have to read again

What utter tournament