I had an assessment day on Saturday for a new job position which I've been really looking forward to. Of around 20 who came, throughout the day 15 or so were asked to go home. I made the final five and stayed the duration. We all left without knowing the result of how we'd all done. As far as we all were aware, there were a few positions available.
I woke up today to find an e-mail from the company telling me that after careful consideration I've not been successful on this occassion. I'm absolutely gutted. It sounds silly, but it really felt like a new chapter in my life was finally beginning. Instead, now I'm back where I started and once again a little lost of where to go and what to do with myself. For the last few months I've been building this up in my head. I knew that it was always likely to not materialise but I just always pushed that scenario aside; I didn't want to consider it.
I can't help but feel I may have ballsed up my interview at the end of the day as I was so tired my eyes were beginning to roll (I stayed over in a Premier Inn and had a terrible night's sleep), and now I'm beating myself up over it.
I really thought I might have had this one in the bag. Scuppered at the last moment! Dang.
I woke up today to find an e-mail from the company telling me that after careful consideration I've not been successful on this occassion. I'm absolutely gutted. It sounds silly, but it really felt like a new chapter in my life was finally beginning. Instead, now I'm back where I started and once again a little lost of where to go and what to do with myself. For the last few months I've been building this up in my head. I knew that it was always likely to not materialise but I just always pushed that scenario aside; I didn't want to consider it.
I can't help but feel I may have ballsed up my interview at the end of the day as I was so tired my eyes were beginning to roll (I stayed over in a Premier Inn and had a terrible night's sleep), and now I'm beating myself up over it.
I really thought I might have had this one in the bag. Scuppered at the last moment! Dang.
