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Well guys how is everyone. Not sure on the new rules on GD so if this thread isnt allowed dons please delete it 
Just looking to have a wee rant.
Am finally getting my life on track and I know it will take a while to be were I want to be but I know I am going to do it.
Over the last few years I have been wallowing in my own self pitty. This was to do with me making some very bad choices when I was young and getting shafted by girls too many times,
Most of the old crew will know my story so I am not going to repeat myself. I have nearly lost my life before many times due to me making bad choices.
After my ex left me last november I again went down hill and wasnt good at all.
But now I have realised I will sort myself out and sort mylife out. Yes I know it will be hard but I finally know this is what I want to do. I want to be happy being on my own and hopefully someday I will find someone and I wont be scared of getting into another relationship.
Over the last for years I have been on a course of destruction. I have cried, I have hurt people and I have hurt myself. I have also built up huge debts £18,000
But that is going to change. I am now getting help with my debts through a company and I am going to tell my parents about the debt tomorrow to let them know the score. I know they will be dissapointed in me but I know they will stand by me.
I have started to clear them and should be debt free hopefully within 5years.
But I have also had a big change of mind set. I am going to start to sort myself out. THis change of mind set has came from realising that I have a great group of friends that love me and dont want to see my destroying myself.
I am planning to try and sort my head out and just leave relationships and girls for a while and not pressure myself. As I have finally realised that girls arnt the be all and end all. If it is meant to be it will.
I am also planning to get fit again.As I think this should help with my self esteem.
Anyway I just wanted a wee rant. But for a change its a rant for the good. I owe a lot to these boards especially to Feek(Yes I know he isnt around anymore) Feek once said that he doesnt know me anymore as the depression has got a hold on me.(We met at the swansea do a few years ago) and this hit home as I realised how far I had fallen.
Anyway sorry for the rant.
And to anyone that is going though a bad time. Believe me things will get better sooner or later
So hopefully by the time this swansea do happens I wil be a new improved Gareth.
Gareth
Just looking to have a wee rant.
Am finally getting my life on track and I know it will take a while to be were I want to be but I know I am going to do it.
Over the last few years I have been wallowing in my own self pitty. This was to do with me making some very bad choices when I was young and getting shafted by girls too many times,
Most of the old crew will know my story so I am not going to repeat myself. I have nearly lost my life before many times due to me making bad choices.
After my ex left me last november I again went down hill and wasnt good at all.
But now I have realised I will sort myself out and sort mylife out. Yes I know it will be hard but I finally know this is what I want to do. I want to be happy being on my own and hopefully someday I will find someone and I wont be scared of getting into another relationship.
Over the last for years I have been on a course of destruction. I have cried, I have hurt people and I have hurt myself. I have also built up huge debts £18,000
But that is going to change. I am now getting help with my debts through a company and I am going to tell my parents about the debt tomorrow to let them know the score. I know they will be dissapointed in me but I know they will stand by me.
I have started to clear them and should be debt free hopefully within 5years.
But I have also had a big change of mind set. I am going to start to sort myself out. THis change of mind set has came from realising that I have a great group of friends that love me and dont want to see my destroying myself.
I am planning to try and sort my head out and just leave relationships and girls for a while and not pressure myself. As I have finally realised that girls arnt the be all and end all. If it is meant to be it will.
I am also planning to get fit again.As I think this should help with my self esteem.
Anyway I just wanted a wee rant. But for a change its a rant for the good. I owe a lot to these boards especially to Feek(Yes I know he isnt around anymore) Feek once said that he doesnt know me anymore as the depression has got a hold on me.(We met at the swansea do a few years ago) and this hit home as I realised how far I had fallen.
Anyway sorry for the rant.
And to anyone that is going though a bad time. Believe me things will get better sooner or later
So hopefully by the time this swansea do happens I wil be a new improved Gareth.
Gareth