Help on how to deal with this..

hargi

hargi

hargi

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Hi,

I have been writing this post on and off for days and wondering whether to post or not. But I think its time to ask for some advice, and there are a few things that I would like help with.
First off I am normally a mentally strong person, quite sound and can put up with a lot.

So before Christmas, I was starting to not enjoy my job, just the normal not really enjoying the work, then politics get involved which starts me questioning if I wanted to continue working there. This has got worse and worse over the time I have been there and its become toxic to me.

In my last job I was competent at my work and confident in my abilities and was progressing well. Where I am now I have had about of imposter syndrome before Xmas which I have got over, but I don't feel confident in what I am doing. Saying that I have compleated all the jobs I have been given. However, the systems I work on are both complicated from a technical point of view and also from a logic point of view too.

I am pained to say this but I think I have been suffering from anxiety since Christmas, I feel my stomach drop and my heart pound when I think about work and on the drive to work and even at the weekends. I wake up a few times during the night and then have trouble getting back to sleep due to thinking about work. I haven't been to the doctors about this as I know the only way to get better is to change jobs and also I don't want to be prescribed drugs that mess with my brain.

Recently I have has a positive interview and very strongly believe I will be offered a new job.

But currently, in my job ( that know nothing about me wanting to leave) I am been given tasks that I don't understand how to do as I don't have the prior knowledge of that system and the people that can help me are all tied up in their own work, I have asked for help and they have assigned time for that but only a few minutes and in a few days time. So frustration 1 is that I am stuck, asked for help on something that is above me and can't get any help. Then one guy is off so they are trying to give me his tasks to do which are even more complicated than the first lot.

If / when I hand my notice in do they still have to treat me as a normal employee, i.e they are still obliged to provide help and support for my tasks? I'm an honest guy and want to leave amicably, it's not a case that I think I am leaving so I am not bothered, its genuinely I don't understand the tasks I have to do.

Looking for any input or suggestions that may help.

Thanks
 
They aren't obliged to do anything really. If you plan on leaving anyhow just do the best you can and while easier said than done stop worrying about it - maybe try taking your concerns to someone higher up but if it is like many places I've worked while they will make noises about being there for support any time but any actual action when asked for will constantly be deferred and put off/forgotten about :s
 
Obvious question, but have you sat down with your manager properly about the workload/difficulty? What's your relationship with them like? As this is key.

Does sound like you're ready for moving on though. Keep putting effort into the search and don't rely on just one company/role.
 
I have spoken up in stand ups about the work and how I have been making little progression. Even in our planning meetings I have mentioned it. Only to be allotted 30 mins of time a day and half after I had brought it up.

The task got took off me yesterday, but then after a discussion I got given a extra day on it . Only for my day to be interrupted with mtgs and investigations of other bugs. So I couldn't get my head into it.
 
Sounds like you might be working in Scrum becuase of the ceromonies you mention but if so it doesnt sound like it's run well. You should be getting more support and not have tasks assigned to you

Is it a lack of programming knowledge or a understanding of the requirements?

There's no point sitting there stewing on something and not making any progress. Ask for support from other developers the product owner or scrum master. Pair programming could be a good way to learn or perhaps a story kick off session with another dev where you discuss the approach you intend on taking. You could then even have regular check ins with that person.

If you don't speak up people will assume that you're fine and not getting through the work for other reasons.

I would hope that your team would want to support you on this as ultimately it makes them more productive.
 
Its SCRUM but its also not, I have worked in places where SCRUM has been done well and everything runs smoothly... however here its not.

It was a bit of lack of how to do this programatically along with not really understanding the requirements bit of a perfect storm really.

I have spoken up and nothing really was forthcoming on a few occasions...

To be honest I wont be her long.
 
Seems crazy to me that you're effectively working in a silo and not getting support from the team and don't have a product owner present to answer any requirement questions.
I assume you either don't have a scrum master in the team? Or they're **** and not picking up on these things.
 
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