Hi all, I've not really posted much here but any input to my current situation will be much appreciated.
I don't know what it is, but lately I've been feeling completely unfulfilled about anything that I do, which is quite worrying because I'm only 17 years old.
At first I thought it may be related to my education. I don't mean to sound arrogant but I have to be honest in saying that in all my years of school I've never come across anything that I've found THAT challenging. I got 5 A's in my Highers in 5th year and now I've basically been wasting time until I go to Uni. I'm wondering if the fact that I know I don't have to accomplish anything this year at school is perhaps making me lethargic or lazy.
The thought of Uni is also depressing me a bit. All around me I have adults telling me that they will be the best years of my life and my friends telling me that they can't wait, but the truth is I'm not looking forward to it at all. First of all the course I picked is a joint Computing/Physics degree which is fair enough because they are my best subjects, but I can't help buy feel in the back of my mind that I'm just settling for this because there was nothing else to do. I looked through numerous prospectus and couldn't see one course that really jumped out at me at all. It's also the whole socialising thing I'm worried about, because I'm generally a shy person and it can take a long time for me to build up a friendship with an individual. I'm not the kind of person who will just go up to someone and start talking to them.
The thing that has really been niggling at me though is the thought of just going through life working my ass off and only really getting to enjoy it for the last 20years or so. I don't want to just be another statistic on this planet's population. The thought of how I see it as wasting my life away in a job is frankly frightening me, as we only get one chance at this life and I don't intend on wasting it.
If you read this far, well done. I'm just looking for any input as I feel tbh that I may be stuck in a rut of sorts.
I don't know what it is, but lately I've been feeling completely unfulfilled about anything that I do, which is quite worrying because I'm only 17 years old.
At first I thought it may be related to my education. I don't mean to sound arrogant but I have to be honest in saying that in all my years of school I've never come across anything that I've found THAT challenging. I got 5 A's in my Highers in 5th year and now I've basically been wasting time until I go to Uni. I'm wondering if the fact that I know I don't have to accomplish anything this year at school is perhaps making me lethargic or lazy.
The thought of Uni is also depressing me a bit. All around me I have adults telling me that they will be the best years of my life and my friends telling me that they can't wait, but the truth is I'm not looking forward to it at all. First of all the course I picked is a joint Computing/Physics degree which is fair enough because they are my best subjects, but I can't help buy feel in the back of my mind that I'm just settling for this because there was nothing else to do. I looked through numerous prospectus and couldn't see one course that really jumped out at me at all. It's also the whole socialising thing I'm worried about, because I'm generally a shy person and it can take a long time for me to build up a friendship with an individual. I'm not the kind of person who will just go up to someone and start talking to them.
The thing that has really been niggling at me though is the thought of just going through life working my ass off and only really getting to enjoy it for the last 20years or so. I don't want to just be another statistic on this planet's population. The thought of how I see it as wasting my life away in a job is frankly frightening me, as we only get one chance at this life and I don't intend on wasting it.
If you read this far, well done. I'm just looking for any input as I feel tbh that I may be stuck in a rut of sorts.