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Only purpose of this post is pretty much purely to rant and get it off my chest, so forgive me if this just comes across as a whine. Going to give the full background on each piece, and apologies for any accidental swearies which I'll remove as soon as spotted!

These last twelve months have been a royal pain in the backside. My other half (together 8 years, married in 2013) suffers from a severe anxiety disorder which has been getting progressively worse these last couple of years (since the tail end of 2012).

She's had CBT, and is now on medication which seems to be helping, but largely seems to be down to her profession as a primary teacher and the stress she's been under because of it. So much so that as of September she cut down to part time work, and with me getting a fairly significant promotion and pay rise, I decided it would be even better if she quit altogether and went back to uni to retrain in something more towards what she actually wants to do (child bereavement counselling). As an infrastructure engineer myself, and a teacher, we're not exactly badly off but we both work hard, but it's the best thing to do for her quality of life.

Which leads me nicely on to work. Now, don't get me wrong, my employer is on the whole actually pretty good, and understanding with work/life balance. The job I do is quite flexible in terms of working from home, but with a major contract change with our main customer the Level 1 24/7 position I was in changed to having Level 2 technicians as the first port of call. So, we were all made redundant, but with the experience I have the offer came in to stay on with a small pay bump, progressing in to a larger pay bump after completing a couple of Microsoft certificates.

All well and good, but with the job as mentally busy and short on staffing resources as we were, I never got the chance to do the certificates. Fast forward 3 months later and I get pulled aside by my manager with an offer to promote to Level 3 to fill the shoes of someone else leaving. Brilliant, thought I, accepted without a second thought... and four months later here I am essentially doing Level 3 work with not much higher than Level 1 wages. Conversations are going on at senior management level to get this resolved, outcome of which I find out tomorrow. Suffice to say, the difference in wages is pretty major, and the back pay for the last 4 months (officially started as L3 at the beginning of November) equates to quite a chunk of change.

In the background to all of this, at the beginning of 2015 my mother started getting sufficiently ill that she was in and out of hospital a lot. Fast forward 12 months and 9 or 10 hospital visits later, and it turns out she's down to 30% liver function (never having drunk a drop in her life), has a large terminal colon cancer which has spread to her lymph nodes, has ascites compressing her lungs and heart, and has large varices which could pop any moment and take her out. She's currently as I type in hospital on what is possibly her deathbed, having developed a perforation in her stomach which is leaking bile into her body cavity. Hospital are doing all they can in terms of draining her stomach of fluid to give the perforation a chance to heal up and give her another few months, but things don't exactly look great for her.

Christmas 2015 was reasonably good for family stuff, especially as I picked up a nice annual bonus. I thought, you know what, it's been a naff year, I've got this pay rise coming, I'm going to treat myself - so I picked up an LG 34UC97-C, 34 inches of curved gorgeousness. Curve being utterly not worth the price point aside, loving the resolution and clarity of the screen.

35 days after buying it, I look down from what I'm doing, look up again, and see... http://i.imgur.com/f6Ymitr.jpg. They're present regardless of whether the card is plugged in or not (backlight on but no connection - still present). After talking to OCUK I get sent to LG for warranty repair. Two weeks later I'm still waiting for the monitor to be picked up.

A week ago, quite happily working away on my living room server/HTPC (playing with Cookie Clicker, of all things), and all of a sudden I start getting really bad explorer process instability. Has been a while since a reboot, so off it goes... and doesn't come back up. 3 hours of swearing and pulling cables I find that 1 3 TB storage drive out of 5 is totally hosed, and all content on it totally inaccessible. Array was built using Drivepool, which is a nice piece of drive management software - so the content on the rest of the drives was fine, but I then spent about a week replacing the missing stuff where I could.

And now I've got up this morning to work from home (as I'm basically on alert to get to the hospital ASAP), take a quick glance at my side window and notice the water level on my Raijintek AIO cooler is quite a bit lower than it was last night. Look down and... oh, really?

http://i.imgur.com/0YQh78Z.jpg

Looks like it's leaked and dried out overnight, card is still working more or less fine - it's a GTX 780 so ideally needs swapping out fairly soon, but really could have done without this too right now!

tl;dr: Host of 'minor' issues compounded by a couple of major issue hammering me hard right now. Needed to vent.
 
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On the up side the only actual major thing wrong in your life going on that post is your mums ill health, I don't mean that to sound quite so flippant as it does but all of those other things are either being sorted/dealt with your wage increase, your other half leaving the job causing her all the issues and retraining or minor inconveniences in terms of hardware going pop.

Take a deep breath step back and be there for your mum.
 
Sorry to hear you are going through a series of problems. After being I'll in 2011 my attitude to life changed and now I don't let things bother me. Most of those issues above (with the exception of your mum's illness) are fixable. They will get resolved. Even the pay in your job is within your control if you are prepared to take action.

I have a little mantra from a Blondie song... "I will give you my finest hour". At first what it meant to me was that people could count on me to help them. But lately I've come to realise what it means to me is that I will give myself my finest hour. I have taken control of my life and continue to improved it.

When you realise that your life is entirely within your control, and you can make it better simply by choosing to take action, then it all makes sense.

Good luck.
 
Quality response there olivier :D

Edit: And yeah, cheers guys. I know they're all (except for my old dear) "first world problems", it's just everything at once at the minute. Wondering what's coming next!
 
tl;dr: added, although the anxiety issue with the significant other is quite honestly a major thing too. Living with someone who has this is tough, believe me.
 
Bad things come in bunches, Ocuk will sort ur aio and monitor if u go moan in CS :) Rest u need to be there for ur mum for mate. Itl pick up soon keep going
 
I had a bit of a horrid end to 2015 so know how even the smallest thing can seem like the end of the world.

When things are out of your control it's all too easy for the smaller things to feel like they are going out of control as well so perhaps the best thing you can do for now is tackle and resolve the things you can fix and have off your mind (job and PC).

Most important though is to just be there for your missus and particularly (especially) your mum.

Don't forget to look after yourself as well - I find when I get hammered with things I tend to come down with flu etc.
 
Sorry to hear op, take a deep breath and try relax, just sit and do nothing and breath in and out.

PC issues at least are fixable and should be covered by some sort of warranty, as for rest i'm afraid not much can be done, just be there for her.
 
Wife is really ill but seems to have more of an issue with his monitor and AIO cooler breaking/leaking.

Harsh, but I'll take it :D

Not quite correct, it's my mother who's really ill. Spoke to her Macmillan nurse earlier, and between the fact that she has one dedicated to her in the first place, the chaplain came to visit her and offered to pray for her, and her liver consultant broke down in tears at her bedside today, things aren't looking great. The perforated colon is down to her cancer, and hasn't healed up. Disturbingly, the bile tube has stopped producing anything too, which suggests it's all going elsewhere into her body cavity. Spent some quality time with her today gently mocking my eldest sister (who was present!), reminiscing about family pets, and my father who passed away some 22 years ago when I was 13.

The wife is in constant floods of tears over her own anxiety, breaking down at the smallest thing sometimes, constantly feeling useless and frequently just fed up with having no control over her levels of fear, essentially. It's quite heart wrenching at times, but I can only be there for her as I have for the last few years while it's gradually reached a peak. Frustrating too, as I'm of the mindset of trying to fix things all the time (knew there was a reason I ended up in IT), but the only thing to be is patient with her.

Just as a prime example of our relationship dynamic, she managed to leave her Christmas present handbag in the back of a taxi yesterday. Of course, as every woman does, carrying her life in her handbag had her reduced to a complete desolate wreck. This of course led me to spend nigh on two hours outside the station asking taxi drivers if they'd seen it or recognised the taxi/driver we travelled with (I tracked him down, but he hadn't seen it). I'm now running a fever and have got a bad cold coming, but we got it back - two kind souls who were in the taxi after us found it, tracked her down on Facebook and messaged her this morning.

And yeah, I know the PC stuff is small fry compared to everything else going on. I guess I'm just focusing on the things I at least have a modicum of control over in order to push the hard stuff away. This lot and the stress of money worries has made life a mite hard, and just needed to get it all off my chest.
 
35 days after buying it, I look down from what I'm doing, look up again, and see... http://i.imgur.com/f6Ymitr.jpg. They're present regardless of whether the card is plugged in or not (backlight on but no connection - still present). After talking to OCUK I get sent to LG for warranty repair. Two weeks later I'm still waiting for the monitor to be picked up.

Surely your contract is with OcUK and it's their responsibility to fix/replace it since it's been such a short amount of time. I wouldn't let them fob you off to the manufacturer.
 
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Conversations are going on at senior management level to get this resolved, outcome of which I find out tomorrow.

How did this go? Did they sort out the pay increase and back pay for you?
 
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retrain in something more towards what she actually wants to do (child bereavement counselling).

that sounds like a job full of happiness and frivolity. :-/


i've had a few shtty years myself. lost dad to cancer in 2010, job has been getting progressively shttier, mom got breast cancer in 2013, got the all clear in Nov 13, was dead by Apr 2014 due to brain cancer.
Life sucks at times.
Life is great at times.
Life goes on. it's easy to focus on the cac, maybe if you write a post about all the not-crap things in your life you'll feel a bit better.
 
Host of 'minor' issues compounded by one major issue

I'd be interested in hearing out of you wife's illness and your mum's illness which you regard as being the major issue and which the minor? Or am I way off and the WC leak is the major issue?

Anyway, good luck on your pay rise - hopefully you'll spend the extra money on your wife and/or mum, and not a shiny new monitor for yourself.
 
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