hey. im not here to steal your ''thunder'' or anythin, however i just thought ide share something...
im march this year, my mum died of cancer, leavin my dad, her 15yr old daughter, her 17yr old (me), and the rest of our family.
im not going to lie and say its easy. its not. mum had fought cancer for a year, and was deemed clear in january. and again in february. then she was gone by 28th march. the cancer had got into her spinal cord, leaving her with heavy headaches and back ache. of which the doctor twice claimed was 'nothing to worry about', despite her history with cancer. it all started at the beginning of the week, and was over by the end of it. quickly... which was better, if you can say its 'better' for something like that to happen.
i wasnt bitter, i didnt blame the doctor, or anyone else, and even if it may feel like you want to, there is no one to blame. like me, you may feel angry, confused, frustrated... but whatever you do, FEEL it, dont just sit there and grit your teeth, trying to bare it.
i do hope you have enjoyed time with your mum... i hope you and your family will be ok. youll go through the weirdest emotions, ones you wouldnt expect- in ways i still cant accept it. i still expect mum to come through the door one day and sit down whilst i yell at her for being so long without telling me where she was
thoughts to you and your family, and your mother- everyone here will be here to support you.
x gem x