I was listening to a podcast this morning which has a Trail Runner saying he hated the influx of big commercial style companies spending huge money advertising at events but not being there in person actually helping at the event, and generally being against the monetisation of the sport he loved which up until a few years ago had remained at a pretty grassroots level. He then offset that by accepting he was slightly hypocritical because he was a sponsored athlete and so partly funded by the same corporations he disliked (albeit he chose a smaller more independent company as a sponsor).
It got me thinking about the parts of my life where i have a certain ideal yet the reality couldn't be further from that. The biggest one is probably the minimalist lifestyle. I love the ethos of having little and just enjoying life and experience. However, at the same time i love "stuff". I'm forever buying gadgets i don't need or upgrading a perfectly bike/amplifier/tv for something new and shiny. I think part of that is the love of researching things and then once you buy it you move onto the next, but it definitely goes against what i'd like to do.
Similarly i love the idea of just relaxing in nature, i'm always envious of the people who can just sit on a rock by the beach for hours just staring out into nothing, but i sit there for 5 minutes and get bored. I see people sit in a cafe and slowly nurse a drink enjoying the surroundings, but i order a drink, finish it and then quickly order another and it makes the experience expensive or just overly alcoholic (yes i know non alcoholic drinks exist). I don't nessecerily need stuff to be entertained. I love nothing more than hiking/running/cycling in nature and that doesn't really require any equipment bar what you need for the activity itself. I loved running in mountains and switching off music and taking it in, but i could never just sit there enjoying it without the movement element.
My wife says i have elements of ADHD and reading that back it's probably not far off and i'll use that as my excuse to not be the person i'd like to be
It got me thinking about the parts of my life where i have a certain ideal yet the reality couldn't be further from that. The biggest one is probably the minimalist lifestyle. I love the ethos of having little and just enjoying life and experience. However, at the same time i love "stuff". I'm forever buying gadgets i don't need or upgrading a perfectly bike/amplifier/tv for something new and shiny. I think part of that is the love of researching things and then once you buy it you move onto the next, but it definitely goes against what i'd like to do.
Similarly i love the idea of just relaxing in nature, i'm always envious of the people who can just sit on a rock by the beach for hours just staring out into nothing, but i sit there for 5 minutes and get bored. I see people sit in a cafe and slowly nurse a drink enjoying the surroundings, but i order a drink, finish it and then quickly order another and it makes the experience expensive or just overly alcoholic (yes i know non alcoholic drinks exist). I don't nessecerily need stuff to be entertained. I love nothing more than hiking/running/cycling in nature and that doesn't really require any equipment bar what you need for the activity itself. I loved running in mountains and switching off music and taking it in, but i could never just sit there enjoying it without the movement element.
My wife says i have elements of ADHD and reading that back it's probably not far off and i'll use that as my excuse to not be the person i'd like to be