What to do?

Megahurtz400 · 6 Jan 2009 at 21:16

Hey all, sorry for this soppy thread first off.

Im in a bit of a predicament and i dont know what to do

Basically, im at 6th form at the moment and i hate the place. Not just the "Urgh i hate school" type of hate, i come home and im depressed and just hate everyone and everything.

I didnt go in today, went out with a mate all day and this evening im feeling fairly happy and nothing really is on my mind. But when i go to college, i come home and just everything is on my mind, the only way to describe it is depressed.

I want to do well at college, but i just can't seem to stand it, i dont know what it is that makes me go like that.

I have the choice, drop out of sixth form, be hated by my family and work full time until next September, where i look into starting normal college and doing something there

OR

Stick it out at college being depressed and getting crappy grades, not be hated by my dad/family.

I know this thread is REALLY pathetic, but i just have no idea what to do tbh

Thanks for putting up with me,
Dan

Megahurtz400 · 6 Jan 2009 at 21:20

D.Roberts said:
You being bullied m8?.

or got money,family problems etc?

No thats the thing.

Me and dad argue a bit, but i think its just the way it is, as half the time we get on great!

Dont get bullied, plenty of friends, money isnt a worry.

Which is the annoying thing, if i knew the problem i could sort it out

Megahurtz400 · 6 Jan 2009 at 21:24

tisonlyme said:
I dropped out of college after one week, my dad was really disappointed.

7 years later and I'm the highest earner in my family, good job, good future ahead of me and generally very happy. I knew from the first week that college just wasn't for me, I hated everything about it and I'm glad I made the decision to leave.

I havnt liked in from day 1 tbh.

And no i wasnt pressured into anything, my parents are the type that would like me to come top, but dont mind as long as i dont come bottom, so no pressure from them.

I do History, Economics, Computing and CISCO at the moment.
I LOVE German History, i think its the most interesting lesson ever, i try not to skip this lesson even if i skip the rest of the lessons that day.

Its just being there just makes me feel

Really weird!

Megahurtz400 · 6 Jan 2009 at 21:37

I sort of have a plan in my head at the moment as i said in the OP.

Ive currently got a part time job at Bennetts, which pulls me in around 600 quid a month depending on how much commision i get (Only working Sat + Sunday)

I will either ask my manager if she can afford to have my full time until september, or just stay part time if they cant, simply because trying to find another job at the moment would be pointless, let alone a job as good as the one i have now, i actually enjoy it

Then in the new term, start at my local normal college doing something in particular, most likely something to do with business/management.

Megahurtz400 · 6 Jan 2009 at 21:40

Darkmage88 said:
are you sure its college you hate? do you just come home and do nothing/dos around? Maybe just coming home and stewing/sitting around is making you 'meh', hence going out and doing something with a mate cheers you up. Not saying you do just speculating why. If you don't like it and you can't work out why it's probs something else thats making you down.

Ive got my guitar and thats what i do most evenings, steadily improving too, so i get some feel good factor, but even then sometimes i just zone out and play the same riff over and over again while thinking this whole situation though

Megahurtz400 · 6 Jan 2009 at 21:41

p4radox said:
When you say "depressed", what exactly do you mean?

Are you unhappy, annoyed, disappointed, and what at? Either you're clinically depressed, in which case you should seek help, or else there's some logical reason for you feeling the way you do. In which case you should work out what it is, and plough through anyway. You're doing good A Levels, and you'll probably get onto a decent uni course if you do well. Even studying something like German History which you say you enjoy.

Thats one thing i dont know, never been great with the whole different feelings thing.

I know i feel absolutely pants and just think "Urghhh, i want to be happy" lol.

I dont like using the word depressed but it is the best way to describe it.

Megahurtz400 · 6 Jan 2009 at 21:45

manic111 said:
OP- Do you get involved with stuff at college? Sports, clubs etc? I thoroughly hated my 1st year of 6th form, then in the 2nd year just though "screw it" and got involved with as much as I could. Ended up being one of the best years of my life

I play rugby, go the gym nearly everyday.

Its weird as im not the sort of recluse you'd expect to hear this story coming from, without sounding big headed, i have a thriving social life.

Megahurtz400 · 6 Jan 2009 at 21:54

manic111 said:
I know what you mean, I'm pretty similar at times-do a lot and have the occasional unhappy phase-I guess everyone does to be honest. Is yours more than a phase though? How long's it been going on?

Quite a while now, number of months.

People say you have to have the downs to have the ups (Or vice versa) but everything seems to just be one boring line for me.

Megahurtz400 · 6 Jan 2009 at 22:26

Hxc said:
I'm enjoying sixth form to be honest. It's a laugh and it's not as hard work as I expected, with the exception of quantum physics :E

It is slowly getting down to that stage where it's just a bore though... I dunno. It depends what you have lined up for the future.

Its not just a bore, i could live with that.

Im genuinely unhappy with my life atm.

Megahurtz400 · 6 Jan 2009 at 22:30

Azagoth said:
Emo.

lol, knew someone would say that!

Megahurtz400 · 6 Jan 2009 at 23:12

Zefan said:
Have you considered the armed forces?

Nah theyre not for me, not what i want from my life.

Megahurtz400 · 7 Jan 2009 at 11:42

Turtles said:
Couldn't have put it better myself.

But if you have friends & enjoy your subjects then I don't really see what you have to be upset about.

I wouldnt say i love my subjects, only History.

The rest i'd rather not do, but it if was "go to sixth form or death" i could put up with them.

Megahurtz400 · 8 Jan 2009 at 00:52

Skidder said:
if you love history, why not set your sights on doing a modern history degree, then when you're at college you will have a goal

I say i love it, i think its because im not fond of the other subjects.

And i really dont think im going to go to Uni to be completely honest, costs a load of money, and i think ill be like i am now there.

Another option on the cards is Music at Institute, but i know my Dad will hate me for dropping out of college and becoming a music student, but i think ill be really happy there

Gawd, get me back to school

!