What is your passion?
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[TW]Fox;13627876 said:
Admins.
You must post this as a sticky. I nearly fell off my bloody chair.
I thought there would be more chance of finding a condom machine in the vatican than reading this.
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A few good things: Love, Friends, Family, Comedy, Drinking, Eating, Freedom to name but a few. 
To crush your enemies, to see them driven before you, and to hear the lamentation of their women.
Given you had a low point last Easter in what way did your friend described you as being diffrent by the end of the year?
Is this a kinda pemanat low mood or are there times your like a 'man on a mission' ie working to hard, finding yourslef at the end of your tether cos you can't find anything to enteertain you etc.?
If you are suffering any suicidal ideation or thoughts of self harm I would advice you talk to your GP about it as soon as possible?
If you think these questions are too personal to post a reply to feel free to ignore this post I'm just trying to get a handle on 'where your at' from someione who's had a few problems himself in his time
Well, it's a little hard to go into detail on these boards but essentially I've felt 'low' for many years now and it seems that my final year at university was the straw that broke the camel's back. At the moment I find myself brooding over what has been because I have nothing else to do (no job, etc.) and I'm literally stuck in a town I hate with people I can't get on with. I have nothing to look foward to, I'm stuck in limbo waiting for some doors to open.
I've only ever seriously contemplated suicide once and that was about eight years ago. Sure, I still sometimes fantasise now and again about 'what if i wasn't here', but who doesn't? I've stared into the abyss many times, and I know that I'll never act on those impulses. Rest assured, I won't be doing anything silly.
As I've said, I've been 'low' for many years now, so I think I know roughly where I'm at. When I spoke to a GP over summer, she actually commented that I seemed to know as much, if not more on the subject than she did -- but that's what you get for living and breathing it. However, looking back I did play down how bad I was actually feeling.
Obviously, I'm not a doctor or an expert but from what I've read I'm beginning to think that I might have bipolar-II or something as the hypomania aspect seems eerily familar. I'm going to register and speak to the GP because well, after years of dealing with social anxiety, etc. I think it's time I had a proper diagnosis. I'm fooling myself if I think I'm not ill. I will say though that I'm not weak; this hasn't killed me yet.
Anyway, I feel as if I'm derailing the thread and that was by far from my intention.
You're listening to the wrong people.From what I hear 'it's all good'
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I guess it was inevitable one day. I just.. didn't expect to see the day where there would be no question between saving for a new car or saving for experiences and things with somebody else and... me not picking the car
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Well sorry to here that this has gone on for so long, but glad to hear your starting to get a handle on your diffrences (I won't call it a problem because personally I think it's as much societies problem how they deal with people who are more senesitive to the emtional to and fro's of life), I've always favoured alternative approaches to my mental well being, drinking herbal tea rather than over stimulating caffeine, sensible excercise ( a healthy body = a healthy mind) , meditation exercises, artistic therapies etc.
As may be clear I also have my little 'diffrences' but as a public techy forum is not the place to talk about this really this is my email
[email protected]
if you want to chat more about this sort of stuff
*WARNING anyone else who spams my E-mail will receive a 'plasma' level flaming- You have been warned /WARNING*
Well sorry to here that this has gone on for so long, but glad to hear your starting to get a handle on your diffrences (I won't call it a problem because personally I think it's as much societies problem how they deal with people who are more senesitive to the emtional to and fro's of life), I've always favoured alternative approaches to my mental well being, drinking herbal tea rather than over stimulating caffeine, sensible excercise ( a healthy body = a healthy mind) , meditation exercises, artistic therapies etc.
As may be clear I also have my little 'diffrences' but as a public techy forum is not the place to talk about this really this is my email
[email protected]
if you want to chat more about this sort of stuff
*WARNING anyone else who spams my E-mail will receive a 'plasma' level flaming- You have been warned /WARNING*
Kinda depends on the herb your using
diffrent herbs do diffrent things Ginger is a stimulant Valerium ain't. It won't make you instantly happy (thats MDMA your thinking of, nasty chemical S*** 
) but it can help give you a little boost in the right direction when you need it sometimes.