blatant it's my birthday post i know (sorry) but i do feel a bit strange, i've never felt like this on a birthday before, not even my 18th or 21st. the realisation that when i go out this weekend and should i get chatting to a girl, i am going to have to say i'm 30 (should the question pop up) i also feel like i wont be able to act my usual self, which, if i'm honest can be a bit, let's say ''pushing my luck'' but i've always got away with it so far. is 30 the age i have to knock all the fun things on the head and start ''behaving''?