Bipolar

BringTheRain · 12 Jul 2011 at 17:52

I was diagnosed last year with it.

It explained a lot. Crazy highs which can lead to be so excited I cannot control myself.

For example when black ops came out last year, I was too excited to play it!

I am currently paying of my debt of around £54,000 I went into "depression spirals"

I traced back the debt touched 60k

I would spend to make myself happy, but then be depressed an hour later.

I can be the funniest guy on the planet one minute, and complete suicidal the next.

I suffer with extreme anxiety, which leads to panic attacks, passing out etc.

Why am I telling some random people on the internetz?

Coz I have secretly been going to group therapy and have been told to tell people more. It's a secret as its a surprise for the GF. But over the last two weeks, she has said I am different (ie better)

Big weight of my chest that^ Have told a couple from Admin as well before this

Tican · 12 Jul 2011 at 18:12

yoyo50 said:
I'm bi-winning

I came in just to say that

Energize · 12 Jul 2011 at 18:35

Valium on the highs, speed on the lows. Sorted. :cool:

Crowort · 12 Jul 2011 at 18:44

Or just Lithium all the time so you stay in the middle.

Danny091 · 12 Jul 2011 at 18:50

BringTheRain said:
I was diagnosed last year with it.

It explained a lot. Crazy highs which can lead to be so excited I cannot control myself.

For example when black ops came out last year, I was too excited to play it!

I am currently paying of my debt of around £54,000 I went into "depression spirals"

I traced back the debt touched 60k

I would spend to make myself happy, but then be depressed an hour later.

I can be the funniest guy on the planet one minute, and complete suicidal the next.

I suffer with extreme anxiety, which leads to panic attacks, passing out etc.

Why am I telling some random people on the internetz?

Coz I have secretly been going to group therapy and have been told to tell people more. It's a secret as its a surprise for the GF. But over the last two weeks, she has said I am different (ie better)

Big weight of my chest that^ Have told a couple from Admin as well before this

Hey, glad things are going better for you after going to group

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I have been diagnosed with depression myself but lately i dont think its right as i do fit more into the Bi-polar cataogre.I flip between high and low an awfull lot. When im feeling good i can hardly sit still and want to jump into everything with 100% effort but then my mood suddenly drops till the point i wanna go lye in bed because i dont see the point in anything.

I assure everyone its not a made up thing. I try my best to control it but when i do try to control it my body flips to making myself physicaly ill e.g. Massive stomach craps.
I suffer with social phobia too, I HATE public places i start sweating ext and feel very uncomfertable.

albert said:
.. in the olden days you were either happy or unhappy and you just got on with it. But now it's a 'condition'. I'm sure it's a way to get grants/handouts of the Govt. People need to get a grip with all these latter day made up 'illnesses'

Id like to point out that i dont get ANYTHING from the government from it. But it does make my day to day life hell. It effects my concentration span and everything.

Bleh im gonna shut up now

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Skeptic · 12 Jul 2011 at 18:51

albert said:
.. in the olden days you were either happy or unhappy and you just got on with it. But now it's a 'condition'. I'm sure it's a way to get grants/handouts of the Govt. People need to get a grip with all these latter day made up 'illnesses'

MrMoonX · 12 Jul 2011 at 18:54

BringTheRain said:
I was diagnosed last year with it.

It explained a lot. Crazy highs which can lead to be so excited I cannot control myself.

For example when black ops came out last year, I was too excited to play it!

I am currently paying of my debt of around £54,000 I went into "depression spirals"

I traced back the debt touched 60k

I would spend to make myself happy, but then be depressed an hour later.

I can be the funniest guy on the planet one minute, and complete suicidal the next.

I suffer with extreme anxiety, which leads to panic attacks, passing out etc.

Why am I telling some random people on the internetz?

Coz I have secretly been going to group therapy and have been told to tell people more. It's a secret as its a surprise for the GF. But over the last two weeks, she has said I am different (ie better)

Big weight of my chest that^ Have told a couple from Admin as well before this

i spend to make myself happy but not that much, so maybe im bipolar, I do have highs and lows, but I dont think im that crazy, have had a few bouts of serious depression in my 20s, wonder how I know if im bipolar or not?

BringTheRain · 12 Jul 2011 at 18:57

MrMoonX said:
i spend to make myself happy but not that much, so maybe im bipolar, I do have highs and lows, but I dont think im that crazy, have had a few bouts of serious depression in my 20s, wonder how I know if im bipolar or not?

Got to try and not turn this into a medical thread!

I had set questions giving to me other a period of a week. And when he explained the responses, it was quite surreal!

Rainmaker · 12 Jul 2011 at 19:03

albert I'm not sure if you're trolling or really just that ignorant, my friend. My maternal grandmother had 'manic depression' as it used to be termed and led a very difficult life. She was fine one day, quiet and depressed as hell the next, then so giddy she was literally dancing in the streets and logic went out of the window. By that I mean she'd be like a toddler again - making in appropriate comments, singing, talking nonsense ("Eeee, taxi driver looks like a cop, take me to see the sherriff. There's no rent in a tent you know?")...

It's a very real, serious condition often resulting in crippling depression, a ton of debt from impulse spending and suicidal depression. Not funny.

BringTheRain, good on you for having the balls to 'admit' it (like it's a shameful thing??! Not.). It sounds like you've taken a lot of positive steps and are getting things under control. Well done that man, keep at it and remember you have lots of virtual friends behind you.

I must admit I worry I have it myself at times, as I do suffer depression but get days where I'm just 'too' ecstatic, bounce around wanting to buy stupid things (dogs, computers, equipment etc) I can't afford, and then I crash down a day later and don't leave the house for a week. :/ But that's for my doctor not this thread. Just saying it's more common than people realise, it's real, and it's nothing to be ashamed of.

Mild 'mania' often produces extraordinary amounts of creativity and good in the world. It's just not so much fun for the sufferer.

BringTheRain · 12 Jul 2011 at 19:07

Rainmaker said:
BringTheRain, good on you for having the balls to 'admit' it (like it's a shameful thing??! Not.). It sounds like you've taken a lot of positive steps and are getting things under control. Well done that man, keep at it and remember you have lots of virtual friends behind you.

Thanks, forgot the most important bit. Constant worry

I worry about everything and anything. I always expect the worse out of a situation. And then when the worst doesn't happen. I go on a hyper excitement trip

Can relate to doing stupid things when "on one" I can do some crazy things indeed

Biggest thing i am a proud of is, i owe less than 20k now

Its taken just under 3 years to pay of around 34k!

Rainmaker · 12 Jul 2011 at 19:10

BringTheRain said:
Thanks, forgot the most important bit. Constant worry I worry about everything and anything. I always expect the worse out of a situation. And then when the worst doesn't happen. I go on a hyper excitement trip

Can relate to doing stupid things when "on one" I can do some crazy things indeed

Biggest thing i am a proud of is, i owe less than 20k now Its taken just under 3 years to pay of around 34k!

I hear you mate, and well done for getting on top of things so quickly and so well. It won't be long before you're debt free at this rate.

Danny091 · 12 Jul 2011 at 19:11

BringTheRain said:
Thanks, forgot the most important bit. Constant worry I worry about everything and anything. I always expect the worse out of a situation. And then when the worst doesn't happen. I go on a hyper excitement trip

I know ive already posted once in this thread about it. But i also get this, i automaticly expect the worse out of everything and worry about it contiuesly (it just wont leave my mind). With it all added together means my confidence its pritty rubbish tbh.

I don't so much have the spending thing. Well not to the extent you seem to anyway thanks for posting BringTheRain has been very interesting to read your posts about it.

BringTheRain · 12 Jul 2011 at 19:16

Rainmaker said:
I hear you mate, and well done for getting on top of things so quickly and so well. It won't be long before you're debt free at this rate.

I am redoing all of my loans,credit cards etc in Jan2012. I will be extending the debt a bit as i will be lowering the payments. But instead of paying about £1150 in debt per month, i will be paying £350 ish. It means i can move out of my parents, before i hit 30! YAY

Danny091 said:
I know ive already posted once in this thread about it. But i also get this, i automaticly expect the worse out of everything and worry about it contiuesly (it just wont leave my mind). With it all added together means my confidence its pritty rubbish tbh.

I don't so much have the spending thing. Well not to the extent you seem to anyway thanks for posting BringTheRain has been very interesting to read your posts about it.

The worry thing has been reduced no end. As I found a helpful guide on the net. Haven't got the link as reformatted pc. But it is easy to find again.

I would worry myself to death about everything. And drive my close loved ones MAD!

Danny091 · 12 Jul 2011 at 19:22

BringTheRain said:
I would worry myself to death about everything. And drive my close loved ones MAD!

If it was in anyway possible to worry about something i would. If it wasn't possible i would find a way!

Although i have to say i have been feeling better last couple of months and i am going back to college in September. Hopefully i wont drop out this time but its one of them things sadly i have no control over (i do try to control it but it seems to make me go worse).

Then people that go it isn't real make me want to punch them in the face...

On a side note of that BringTheRain have you had anger problems related to it? People used to ask me simple questions sometimes and i have had massive adrenaline rush's ready to hit them thankfully i haven't but its really scary. Simple things like someone not getting what i'm explaining + feeling down and BOOM like a grenade.

BringTheRain · 12 Jul 2011 at 19:27

Well Danny boy

lol Sounds good if you have TWO months feeling better. MY max for feeling good is now. Have been feeling good for 3 weeks. I usually feel good for around 2 or 3 days tops.

As for anger, I do snap all the time with everyone. I can tell my dad to **** off even if he only asked if I wanted a drink.

Anger has gone somewhat since I stopped playing on the 360. I would get game rage if I was on a "low"

Around about maybe urmmmm 3 years ago. I had a phase of visualising punching people whilst talking, but that was soon put under control. I was bottling anger and emotion.

I said like a reet head case

Danny091 · 12 Jul 2011 at 19:34

BringTheRain said:
Well Danny boy lol Sounds good if you have TWO months feeling better. MY max for feeling good is now. Have been feeling good for 3 weeks. I usually feel good for around 2 or 3 days tops.

As for anger, I do snap all the time with everyone. I can tell my dad to **** off even if he only asked if I wanted a drink.

Anger has gone somewhat since I stopped playing on the 360. I would get game rage if I was on a "low"

Around about maybe urmmmm 3 years ago. I had a phase of visualising punching people whilst talking, but that was soon put under control. I was bottling anger and emotion.

I said like a reet head case

Your not that bad!

I still feel down and up it just the switches arnt so grate if that makes sense.

At least you could play the Xbox when feeling low! My concentration goes so much i cant even browse the web my brain just doesn't tick over and if i try to game i last maybe 5 mins tops before turning it off.
At the moment my main priority is just getting through college i'm doing a ICT course that i should really enjoy so hopefully fingers crossed it will go well.

And yes that's the kind of anger i get. I go from perfectly chilled to someone asking me what i think is a stupid question to a raging monster.

Thanks for the chat anyways. Nice to know about other people that go through the same kind of thing.

BringTheRain · 12 Jul 2011 at 19:42

Well I hope it all works out for you.

A quote I was given about 3 weeks ago, has made a big difference.

Worry never robs tomorrow of its sorrow, it only saps today of its joy.

My trust is always there if you need a chat

Rainmaker · 12 Jul 2011 at 19:54

BringTheRain said:
Worry never robs tomorrow of its sorrow, it only saps today of its joy.

Like.

albert · 12 Jul 2011 at 20:45

Rainmaker said:
albert I'm not sure if you're trolling or really just that ignorant, my friend. My maternal grandmother had 'manic depression' as it used to be termed and led a very difficult life. She was fine one day, quiet and depressed as hell the next, then so giddy she was literally dancing in the streets and logic went out of the window. By that I mean she'd be like a toddler again - making in appropriate comments, singing, talking nonsense ("Eeee, taxi driver looks like a cop, take me to see the sherriff. There's no rent in a tent you know?")...

Not trolling but people really need to get a grip. This topic just justifies what a made up cop out 'illness' this really is.

I get excited when a new computer game comes out. I like spending money. I like drinking alcohol and if i had huge debts i would probably worry. However there's nothing wrong with me.

..... oh hang on i'm really really excited for Battlefield 3 , i'm really really excited. Might phone in sick for work tomorrow because i'm ill! ... get a grip people ....

Rainmaker · 12 Jul 2011 at 20:51

albert said:
Not trolling but people really need to get a grip. This topic just justifies what a made up cop out 'illness' this really is.

I get excited when a new computer game comes out. I like spending money. I like drinking alcohol and if i had huge debts i would probably worry. However there's nothing wrong with me.

..... oh hang on i'm really really excited for Battlefield 3 , i'm really really excited. Might phone in sick for work tomorrow because i'm ill! ... get a grip people ....

As I said, ignorance. You're lucky to have not been affected by this illness but it's folly to dismiss it. It's a serious psychiatric illness which has been recognised for a long time. It severely impacts on the health and wellbeing of those affected, as well as those around them. We're not talking about being chuffed Battlefield 3 is coming out, we're talking about blowing life savings on a day at the shops, bouncing off walls in hysteria (maybe with hallucinations and psychosis) for a month, and then jumping off a bridge when the crash comes.

Read up on it, learn something, and maybe expand your mind a bit.