Where did you see yourself 5 years ago?

5 years ago my contemplation of the future was limited to how long until 3.30pm, whats mum made for tea, and how many sleeps till Christmas. I would say in 5 years time I saw myself being at university living the student life, partying my way to being a multi billionaire super stud.

And where are you now?

I am at uni living the student life, however the future billionaire playboy part hasn't exactly gone to plan.

Are you as happy/motivated/successful as you wanted?

I'm happy when I'm with friends or playing sport, but when I'm alone I tend to contemplate the future too much and get into destructive negative loops of thought about how bleak the future looks.
I've lost a lot of motivation and I'm falling behind on my work a lot. Last year was pretty successful, if I want my 2nd to be as good, I've got a lot of work to put in. My passion for my subject has really dwindled.
I now feel like I'm only staying at uni and putting up with a subject I no long enjoy so that I can play a sport I love and stay with the people I love, and dull lectures and hard assignments are the price I have to pay for those perks. :(

Are you still en-route to your goals?
If I can stick with my studies for another two years I'll have graduated with a 2:1 from a Physics masters degree at a Russell group uni, so hopefully the economy will be in better health and I'll be with a fighting chance of getting a great first job. However, the more i think about the future the more i think I would hate a desk job and feel depressed and trapped.

Or are you in a totally different place than you thought you'd be?
Definitely. I never expected to find myself in the kind of social scene I'm in, or to find such a passion for sport, and I didn't think I would hate the idea of a corporate desk job so much. I'm worried about the future because I have no idea how I can find a job that won't drive me insane; I don't want to be working 9-5 and living for the weekend, I want to make everyday feel like like a saturday because I love what I'm doing.

Overall how do you feel now?
This sums it up nicely:
http://i.imgur.com/RPwm2.jpg

[/rant] felt good to get that off my chest
 
5 years ago, if I had seen the amount of **** I'd have to deal with, I would have given up and bailed on my plans.

To be fair though, I'm glad I didn't :) even through all the ****, I've got an amazing group of friends, I've had some awesome experiences, and I think it's been worth it.

I never would have thought 5 years ago that I would have DJd in two of the biggest clubs in London, will or that I would have a decent group of friends :)
 
5 years ago I was 14, fit, had confidence and played rugby. 17 till about 3 months ago I have been pretty depressed. Now on my way to becoming fitter and I feel much better for it although it's the start of a long road.
 
5 years ago I was a successful, well liked manager in a job I loved, and had just started a relationship with an amazing woman. I saw my future as moving up the corporate ladder, self improvement and a house of my own with the missus.

In reality, it ended up being unexpected redundancy, 2 years of learning nothing in a job that didn't cover my monthly outgoings, bankruptcy, moving 160 miles away, and then losing the woman I loved because of despression and moving back in with my old dear with nothing.
Lets face it, it can only get better right? Lol
 
5 years ago I'd just have finished uni - at the time I knew that I didn't want to pursue my degree subject but beyond that I had little idea what I did want to do except that it almost certainly wasn't law, sales or insolvency related.

Overall I'm fairly happy with where I am, I've got the beginnings of a decent career, once I've submitted my logbook I will hopefully have a well recognised professional qualification and generally work has gone quite well for me. I don't know if it's what I want to do for the rest of my life but for the moment I might as well go with it and see where it leads to. In terms of personal life and relationships I'm sure I could be doing better but that's something I need to work on rather than being a source of much worry.

I can't say whether I've achieved my goals as I'm not totally sure what they are - I've still got a vague hankering to live abroad again for a while but that's a fairly loose ambition and depending on what happens I might not do it and yet be perfectly happy with that.
 
Things are very different now to five years ago.

This time in 2007 I was living in a studio, I had a well-paid job and a gf of two years. I had also just started a record label and thought that the label was going to turn into something quite successful. But deep down, I wasn't happy and I slowly started slipping into depression which hit in 2008.

Fast forward five years and I've moved out of that North London studio into a beautiful flat by the river in South London. I split up with that gf in 2009 and am now engaged to my Turkish gf who I met the same year. Jobwise the company I was working for fell into a lot of trouble in 2009 and ejected most of its staff and the record label slowly collapsed and ceased trading in 2010.

I gave up writing to concentrate on the record label which was a massive error and contributed to the depression I fell into in 2008. I know that I must always write and/or be creative or it starts affecting me psychologically in a very negative way. Musically my tastes have gone from 75% metal/25% ambient to about 40% metal/60% ambient and related music. This is due to the relatively derivative quality of metal music these days.

So I love my gf, and where I live but the career is the thing that really need to be on course. It's clear that living off a record label will not work unless you have a hell of a lot of capital, and getting onto a creative career path is very tough. So no, I have not achieved my career goal and that is the big big thing that need developing.
 
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5 years ago I thought I'd have a nice big cellar but I'm still having to use my allotment. :(
 
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