I find it all cringe worthy too platypus, and no it doesn't mean im suicidaljust hate over optimistic, perma happy, fake smile people.
deadpan and dry sarcastic humour helps.
Ah a kindred soul.
Everyone thinks I'm a morose, doom and gloom boring stick in te mud at work.
Not at all, I just hate working (though paradoxically not my job) and I hate their over happy kiddieness that any form of extra engagement with them would involve me wielding an axe
I think they would probably prefer "I can't be bothered" me 
just hate over optimistic, perma happy, fake smile people.
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