I quit smoking ciggs and weed many years ago but I remember trying a smoking blend called "spice gold" a good 8 years ago now it was supposed to be an alternative to cannabis That
**** nearly ruined my life, I remember smoking a
**** load in a pipe and initially feeling a similar high to weed and thinking wow this stuff really works this is awesome because its legal too, but i then started to get this intense feeling in my stomach sort of like butterfly's but without the anxiety it kept getting more and more intense its hard to explain even though i remember it very well even to this day, sort of like that sinking feeling you get in your stomach when something surprising happens only 10000 times more intense.
At this point i started rocking back and forth i kept singing in my head " i got soul" i got soul" i got souuuuuuuuuul" i have no idea where these words came from but it felt like the intence feeling was something to do with my soul WTF
At this point i started to really crap my pants and laid down on my bed and this is where it started to really mess with my head, My tv started talking to me, yes seriously, i don't mean it had eyes and lips and was talking but it was like eastenders was on and what the charters just so happened to be talking about at the time was completely relevant to me

it freaked me out so i turned the channel over and the next program to come on would do the same thing what ever the people were talking about completely related to me in the most intense real way, i changed the channels a number of times and it kept happening,i started to now
**** my pants and turned the tv of and rolled over on my bed and just so happened to glace at a magazine and something on the page was again talking directly to me at this point i was like wtf make it stop i can't get away from this, i closed my eyes and everything i just saw on the tv just kept playing in repeat over and over unless i opened eyes at which point the
****ed up coincidences and everything relating to me just kept going on.
It was like i had to give in and let it happen at which point i kind of worked out that it was related to my emotions, the better i tried to feel the better things started to happen, i remember forcing my self to think its ok its going to wear off soon, at which point phill Mitchell said something along the lines of everything it going to be ok ill take care of it just enjoy it. i went on a emotional roller coaster of super low's that felt like i was in hell to literally utter bliss heaven on earth, and i learn t i had some control over it, This went on for what seemed like HOURS, at one point i remember going out to get some fresh air ended up in my local asda and it was like i could read everybody's emotions i knew what they were thinking, i could see lots of miserable people walking around and it was like omg they are living in hell on earth just look at them they all look like they are dying, then i would see happy people full of life walking around with smiles and i was like really drawn to these people they were giving me positive energy it felt amazing then when i focused on the miserable people it was like they were sucking the life out of everybody and everything they walked past.
it was the most
****ed up scary
**** that ever happend to me and to this day i can never forget it, it change my perspective on life, i thought i had gone insane at one point but in a crazy way it i would not be who i am today if it never happend,