Do you feel a weight on your shoulders?

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Ha ha ha, no, I am not talking about literal weight like a backpack or truck or even a set of skiis in a bag like in James' Bond's Film's The Spy Who Liked Me A Bit, No Touching, NO TOUCHING!

I mean more like a considered weight. I read your woes about your foes and your life - and this is not a joke - I write all of it down, I put it in a journal, it is red, it is a good journal, but then there is this weight that I feel, like you're encumbered. Has anyone played Team 17's The Watcher 3? It's got some hot dragons in it, they're sweet and rad AF, and there was this one time where I, Kyne, the Nordic aspect of Kynareth, was the one who granted the power to use the Thu'um to the mortal races of men. Paarthurnax was then the first to teach mortals to use the Thu'um. Slam dunk that funk.

And Christmas is an emotional time. People go through some fairly big events all the time, granted, but Christmas seems to draw out the best and also the worst of people. I really think that people are good or maybe even neutral but they're pulling for each other most or all of the time.

If you're not feeling that great, maybe you can share a tale with us. I'd like to hear how you're doing :)
 
I feel a weight on my shoulders to make my time on this Earth actually meaningful, and reverse some of the damage selfish, greedy, disgusting humans have done to the planet. I'd like to help contribute to Science, or Environmental Science, but I, as yet, still do not know how to change careers and get into it. Either way money is only massively relevant to either the selfish, low IQ'd, or poorly educated.
 
The only thing I can think of is the 'pressure' of starting a family.

I'm happily single but do feel that there will be a point down the line that If I didn't meet someone and have kids then my life would have been almost pointless

Probably a society thing but also because I know that my parents would love grandkids even though they don't pressure me about it, I know they would be disappointed even if they wouldn't say that to me.
 
Yes, hugely.

Currently trying to renovate my house on my own which is incredibly hard (Mrs is moving in possibly in march which will help hugely).

So I'm currently spent out every single month. Not usually an issue as I manage it it just means I never get things for myself etc, to be expected.

Now for personal reasons which I won't go into (its not that interesting and would take ages) I HATE the christmas period. Like I try and just carry on as if its a normal week and anyone who even utters merry christmas makes me rage internally.

So at a difficult time of year for me personally I manage to save £100 this month to apply for a scheme at work that will give me £1800 back in april, which will go straight on the house and me a massive help.

I spent monday to wednesday last week just eating pasta to save a few quid. Weds night I decide I need to go shopping for something decent (meat) to eat and have to drive out to tesco, only 10 miles and a bit rainy, no issues there. Halfway back realise theres a water streak on my windscreen that wont go away, figure its just my wipers playing up. Nope, its a 10" crack right across drivers view.

Now my 'home' is 50 miles away on horrendous roads so i can guarantee its going to give way heading home, I live at work during the week and only see the other half at weekends. So now I cant go home for the weekend and see her, and my 'make your life better' money has been spent on the windscreen excess on my insurance.

All for a packet of sausages.
 
Yes, hugely.

Currently trying to renovate my house on my own which is incredibly hard (Mrs is moving in possibly in march which will help hugely).

So I'm currently spent out every single month. Not usually an issue as I manage it it just means I never get things for myself etc, to be expected.

Now for personal reasons which I won't go into (its not that interesting and would take ages) I HATE the christmas period. Like I try and just carry on as if its a normal week and anyone who even utters merry christmas makes me rage internally.

So at a difficult time of year for me personally I manage to save £100 this month to apply for a scheme at work that will give me £1800 back in april, which will go straight on the house and me a massive help.

I spent monday to wednesday last week just eating pasta to save a few quid. Weds night I decide I need to go shopping for something decent (meat) to eat and have to drive out to tesco, only 10 miles and a bit rainy, no issues there. Halfway back realise theres a water streak on my windscreen that wont go away, figure its just my wipers playing up. Nope, its a 10" crack right across drivers view.

Now my 'home' is 50 miles away on horrendous roads so i can guarantee its going to give way heading home, I live at work during the week and only see the other half at weekends. So now I cant go home for the weekend and see her, and my 'make your life better' money has been spent on the windscreen excess on my insurance.

All for a packet of sausages.


Rennovating property on your own is one of the most miserable and soul destroying things a man can do. It is torture. I feel you. Just pack it in until March when you can tackle it with the mrs.
 
Yes, hugely.

Currently trying to renovate my house on my own which is incredibly hard (Mrs is moving in possibly in march which will help hugely).

So I'm currently spent out every single month. Not usually an issue as I manage it it just means I never get things for myself etc, to be expected.

Now for personal reasons which I won't go into (its not that interesting and would take ages) I HATE the christmas period. Like I try and just carry on as if its a normal week and anyone who even utters merry christmas makes me rage internally.

So at a difficult time of year for me personally I manage to save £100 this month to apply for a scheme at work that will give me £1800 back in april, which will go straight on the house and me a massive help.

I spent monday to wednesday last week just eating pasta to save a few quid. Weds night I decide I need to go shopping for something decent (meat) to eat and have to drive out to tesco, only 10 miles and a bit rainy, no issues there. Halfway back realise theres a water streak on my windscreen that wont go away, figure its just my wipers playing up. Nope, its a 10" crack right across drivers view.

Now my 'home' is 50 miles away on horrendous roads so i can guarantee its going to give way heading home, I live at work during the week and only see the other half at weekends. So now I cant go home for the weekend and see her, and my 'make your life better' money has been spent on the windscreen excess on my insurance.

All for a packet of sausages.

Guess your other half won't be getting any meat either.
 
Rennovating property on your own is one of the most miserable and soul destroying things a man can do. It is torture. I feel you. Just pack it in until March when you can tackle it with the mrs.

Can't stop, one of many things she needs is a functional bathroom (nearly finished). If I pack it in I wont start again, and currently I'm living in a single room when im either at home or at work.

Guess your other half won't be getting any meat either.

Not this weekend at least. Still, on the property ladder so swings and roundabouts. In all honesty its weird how it affects you in other ways, I like working and living in a relatively high stress environment, its forces me to do stuff, but this is whole other level and I'll admit its affected my sex drive somewhat with constantly worrying.

 
The only thing I can think of is the 'pressure' of starting a family.

I'm happily single but do feel that there will be a point down the line that If I didn't meet someone and have kids then my life would have been almost pointless

Probably a society thing but also because I know that my parents would love grandkids even though they don't pressure me about it, I know they would be disappointed even if they wouldn't say that to me.
i remember this pressure all through my twenty's ,living with my mum and dad in west Yorkshire popping pills and mixing with booze constantly single and long term unemployed
then late twenty's i got a half decent job (unskilled but steady decent pay) met somebody had a family and eventually made a good house purchase choice that funded a cash buy down here
 
Not a good 2 weeks so far for me. Been arrested twice....drunk etc. Stopping drinking now. Christmas not a good time for me.
 
It's really not a good idea to give a platform to weary willies, malcontents and whiners to bore us with the dreary details of their
wretched and pathetic lives.


Happy Xmas BTW ;)
 
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