Before I start, i'll refer you to this thread (entitled "Heart broken") I made last August.
For the past 6 months I have managed to somehow avoid her at all times, sometimes it's been weird how we seem to have simply avoided each other, almost as if someone was purposely making sure of it. We havn't spoke in six months either. I knew she'd got on with her life and basically acted as if I didn't exist anymore which has hurt like crazy. I'd heard she was out a lot, drinking and acting like a kid again.
However, last night I had a night out with a group of friends I havn't seen in years, a reunion so to speak. If there was one night I would have been happy to see her it was this night. Me with a group of mates, looking/feeling the best i've done in a while.
We get out of the taxi and who is the FIRST person I see? Yeh you get it. She saw me from a distance and walked past head down. I looked at her and said "Hello!" in a "you realise i'm standing right here? I do exist!" kind of way. Then off she trundles down the street prancing around like a little kid. I then saw her at various points throughout the night, one instance she was walking out of the pub holding hands with the biggest GOON you could imagine (an old friend of hers), he looked like a burns victim and was wearing a bright yellow hoodie on a night out (what?). I expected this to make me feel like **** but it didn't. I didn't get the butterflies I expected when seeing her. I didn't speak to her at all for the entire night, I just didn't feel the need to, she clearly didn't want to and she looked/acted like she was 16 again.
I had an absolutely awesome time with all these friends I hadn't seen in a while, and when I got home I text her and basically told her how it is, getting a lot of things off my chest, and I can safely say that I am officially over her. I simply don't care anymore, finally, after 6 months.
I am genuinely happy for the first time in a long time, and wanted you all to know that
For the past 6 months I have managed to somehow avoid her at all times, sometimes it's been weird how we seem to have simply avoided each other, almost as if someone was purposely making sure of it. We havn't spoke in six months either. I knew she'd got on with her life and basically acted as if I didn't exist anymore which has hurt like crazy. I'd heard she was out a lot, drinking and acting like a kid again.
However, last night I had a night out with a group of friends I havn't seen in years, a reunion so to speak. If there was one night I would have been happy to see her it was this night. Me with a group of mates, looking/feeling the best i've done in a while.
We get out of the taxi and who is the FIRST person I see? Yeh you get it. She saw me from a distance and walked past head down. I looked at her and said "Hello!" in a "you realise i'm standing right here? I do exist!" kind of way. Then off she trundles down the street prancing around like a little kid. I then saw her at various points throughout the night, one instance she was walking out of the pub holding hands with the biggest GOON you could imagine (an old friend of hers), he looked like a burns victim and was wearing a bright yellow hoodie on a night out (what?). I expected this to make me feel like **** but it didn't. I didn't get the butterflies I expected when seeing her. I didn't speak to her at all for the entire night, I just didn't feel the need to, she clearly didn't want to and she looked/acted like she was 16 again.
I had an absolutely awesome time with all these friends I hadn't seen in a while, and when I got home I text her and basically told her how it is, getting a lot of things off my chest, and I can safely say that I am officially over her. I simply don't care anymore, finally, after 6 months.
I am genuinely happy for the first time in a long time, and wanted you all to know that
