Yeah another thing is I have been drinking a lot recently, I was pretty much teetotal for the past 5 years or so. I never had a problem with drinking I just didn't particularly like it so very rarely did it.
Then I found a couple of red wines that I really liked and started buying bottles, about a month ago I was drinking more or less a bottle a night.
I've curbed that though, last week I had maybe 2 or 3 bottles the whole week and I won't be buying any more any time soon.
I feel like I'm really equipping myself for this to get worse but that in itself is making me anxious, I'm concerned about putting myself into a spiral whereas I could just go in headlong and be fine. There's been plenty of times that I felt like I should get anxious and just ignored and steamed in and been fine.
