BUMP
I've been today and my post is going to sound heartless but believe me it isn't.
I have always expected going to the 2 camps and choking back tears all around but it didn't happen.
In fact there must have been 5000 people there and Mrs Dimple commented that she hadn't seen one tear.
After 3 days of touring Schindlers factory and other Jewish museums we did our tears in those places but going to Auschwitz I & II today we were just numb as though 'it never happened'.
THAT IS NOT WHAT I THINK I'M JUST CONVEYING THE HORROR.
Imagine standing by train tracks being told that over a million people got off the trains there and were led to their deaths.
Imagine being inside a gas chamber in Auschwitz I and being told that's where 100s and 1000s died where we're standing and they would be in a mountain reaching the ceiling then dragged into the next room where the ovens are - it's just hard to take in.
It really hasn't sunk in yet.
I think what you've found is, as you've alluded to, a difficulty comprehending the sheer numbers involved. Sort of like when you hear the US has a national debt of $14 trillion - you know what a dollar is and you know what a trillion is, but the quantity is so large it cannot be easily imagined, visualised or taken down to a level that's personally relevant. However, if a friend was to say he'd gotten himself in to £50,000 of debt, the empathy would be immediate.
At various points as I walked around Auschwitz, I decided to stop and stare and do my best to imagine what was going on there 60 years ago. It's hard to separate your mind from your life and the tour you are on, the people around you also on the tour, the weather, your own feelings and everything else that occupies your mind. With some effort I'd be able to start imagining the plight of the individual, but shortly after the emotions of such horrific suffering, death, disease, waste, abuse and disregard for human life manifested themselves I'd find myself quickly crying, and I'd have to move my thoughts back in to reality to avoid quite a lot of tears.
I came away from Auschwitz knowing and feeling that it was so bad, that even if you multiply that bad by a million or a billion it just can't get any worse. It's one of, if not
the lowest moment in the history of our species that we should forever hold as an example of why we should always be suspicious of ourselves.
To be honest I am surprised that only 50 years later everyone has forgiven the german nation for what was done.
It's not really possible to blame the German nation for what went on. There are so many incredibly complex factors, many of which we only have the most basic understanding of (such as human psychology), that it's really just best forgiven. What happened was not a failure of one man or of many men, but of 'man' itself.