you need to want to stop in order to actually stop. your posting history tells me you're making excuses and justifying your drinking. really not good signs. coming on here and posting you're going to stop is fooling no one, least of all yourself. you need to get proper help fella.
if you think turning to alcohol is the way to deal with what you perceive to be a **** life then you are in for a hell of a big shock. you only think your life is **** now. you keep drinking the way you are and what you'll get to see what a **** life is really like - and that's if you're lucky.
I agree