It's time for an update because it's been exactly one year since this happened. I won't be 'celebrating' with a drink this evening though.
This is going to be a bit of a brain dump so excuse me in advance for the long post.
Since my last update, I've recovered from the tongue surgery and I have to say that the two weeks following it were perhaps the most uncomfortable I've ever been. I was told to avoid eating anything hot until the stitches had disolved and that took almost exactly two weeks. To start with, I could only eat cold, liquidy type things and that meant soft ice cream. That was fine for a couple of days but the effect of a pure sugar diet on my digestion were horendous. I felt as though I'd been taking triple doses of Agent Picolax.
After two weeks of being in utter agony when anything touched the stitches, I was climbing the walls. I ended up eating mainly yoghurt and tuna (although not at the same time), even those hurt but I was able to get them in and keep them inside me. The moment the last stitch fell out, I was pain free and the first thing I had was a full fry-up!
The end result is that I no longer have a loose flap of tongue but it doesn't mean it's good. I'm always aware of my tongue, it's uncomfortable in my mouth and the best way I've found to describe it is as though there's a dull double edge razor blade resting on the surface of my tongue. It's been over three months since the surgery and it's not getting any better. That's not going to change, it's always going to be like that.
On the plus side, my shoulder has ended up with a larger range of movement than was originally predicted. If I reach forward and up, I have almost as much movement with both arms although it's uncomfortable to stretch that far and it hurts as I move it back. Sideways, I can raise my arm above shoulder level but the movement is coming from further up, not the actual shoulder itself. Moving my arm backwards, I can just manage to put my wallet in my back pocket and take it out but that's it. Lavatorial wise, I still can't use my right arm.
When I get towards the extremes of movement, it hurts. In fact, it still aches all the time and I still have to take painkillers before going to bed otherwise I just can't lay down with any comfort. Insomnia hit me very badly earlier this year and the only way I can sleep properly now is with the aid of medication. It's not psychological because if I take an identical looking placebo instead of the sleeping tablet, I don't sleep.
I have little strength in my right arm. I was diagnosed earlier this year with a badly torn rotator cuff in that arm and was told that without surgery, it'll never heal. Surgery would be difficult with a longer recovery period than when they put the plate in so that's not going to happen.
When I reach out with my right arm, I generally have to support it with my left arm. If I pick up anything heavy without realising, I know about it for at least a week afterwards.
And I'm fat again. Whereas before, I'd happily just go for a walk at any time of the day or night for exercise, I have no confidence any more. If I do go out, I'm constantly staring at the ground right in front of me and I just can't go very far. This, along with a period of unemployment after redundancy earlier in the year had me at rock bottom and I just piled on the pounds.
On a more positive note, I have enough movement to be able to drive properly. I was very concerned while I was in the early stages after surgery that I'd never be able to get behind the wheel of anything other than an automatic with a knob on the steering wheel but fortunately that's not the case.
All in all, it's not been a great year for me but it could have been worse. I still think back to that evening and realise I was lucky that I didn't crack my skull open.
Looking forward to a better year.
My daughter just sent me this, I have to share