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At work I do nothing of significance. I aid a corporation to become an even bigger machine swallowing up even more cogs. I don't help humanity in any way and least of all do I expand my knowledge. I get bored at work sometimes and I worry that it shows. I want to move up in the company but generally lack an amount of self-confidence that proves I'm capable. Managers seem to have this magical gift of self worth and arrogance. Even **** managers that must know they make error after error exude a great self belief and worth that seems to con everyone around me.

I spend around fifty percent of my life either at work or getting ready and traveling to or from work including the sleep required fur this role. And for what? So I can spend my remaining time jerking off and paying bills?

It just seems so pointless. The worst part is that the monotonousness of it has eroded my imagination and drive to form a different life path.

I wouldn't mind so much if I were forty, I could put it down to a mid life crisis; I'm the better half of twenty though.

How do I reignite the spark I had five years ago when I thought I could accomplish anything?
 
I still enjoy a lot of the challenges in my job but still wish I'd done something more meaningful. I think it's a pretty common thing that comes to a lot of us in all honesty. I'm too scared to start at the bottom and do something else now.

One of the happiest people I know is doing something rewarding that they love, but they earn very little for their efforts. I'm not sure how that's going to work out in old age though!
 
Well you need to take back 25% of your consumed time and you can't do that by not paying your bills so how about you stop polishing your copper and doing something else that's unrelated to everything else in your life?
 
mrk said:
Well you need to take back 25% of your consumed time and you can't do that by not paying your bills so how about you stop polishing your copper and doing something else that's unrelated to everything else in your life?
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Like a hobby? All the semi interesting ones seem to cost a fortune :(
 
a) find some enthusiasm for work b) make work less of a focus and pursue other interests when you're not at work.
 
desires said:
At work I do nothing of significance. I aid a corporation to become an even bigger machine swallowing up even more cogs. I don't help humanity in any way and least of all do I expand my knowledge. I get bored at work sometimes and I worry that it shows. I want to move up in the company but generally lack an amount of self-confidence that proves I'm capable. Managers seem to have this magical gift of self worth and arrogance. Even **** managers that must know they make error after error exude a great self belief and worth that seems to con everyone around me.

I spend around fifty percent of my life either at work or getting ready and traveling to or from work including the sleep required fur this role. And for what? So I can spend my remaining time jerking off and paying bills?

It just seems so pointless. The worst part is that the monotonousness of it has eroded my imagination and drive to form a different life path.

I wouldn't mind so much if I were forty, I could put it down to a mid life crisis; I'm the better half of twenty though.

How do I reignite the spark I had five years ago when I thought I could accomplish anything?
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I felt exactly the same in 2007. Working 90 hours a week, commuting 200 miles each way and at the end of it not actually making any significant difference. Then the bombs went off in London and it emphasised it massively.

I vowed then to move to a more meaningful career. It took me 6 years but I've worked on front line ambulances for over a year now and have just started as a student paramedic.

It has taken significant financial sacrifice and burning the bridges of my old career, but it is worth it every time I do a job and feel I have made a difference.
 
desires said:
Like a hobby? All the semi interesting ones seem to cost a fortune :(
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Change job, that will most likely shift things around and potentially earn more money to be able to afford the hobbies you might want to take up!

The upshot is that finding a job while already employed is much easier and virtually stress free and if you don't find one so quickly then that can end up being something to look forward to can't it?
 
I've just changed careers after over 10 years in sales.

I've never felt happier.

I know what you mean about drive, working in car sales for 12 months ruined me, mentally I felt worth less, no matter how many cars I sold it was never good enough. I then got a job in another company, it was better but I knew I wanted out of sales, it tooke a while to get my self confidence back but I am now much happier.
 
I feel pretty much like the OP apart from the confidence (have loads of that). I'm making plans to start my own business in the medium term. I know I won't be truly happy until I've done that.

Oh and...

 
desires said:
Like a hobby? All the semi interesting ones seem to cost a fortune :(
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Exactly, like a hobby, start small, don't need to jump in with both feet and spend a lot of money. Start small.

I work in a big company too so I know the feeling, if I don't do that job, I know someone else can do the same thing and it won't make a slightest bit of difference and certainly 100 years from now nobody will ever remembers it.

My hobby (or the other career) however gives me a lot of more job satisfaction, at the last wedding I actually gasped at a picture that I took. I was really happy in that moment and the day job could never give me that joy.

This is the photo

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When you're at the lowered end of the scale your only option is to be a good sheep and do as the man says. It'd be nice if what you did actually helped us progress forward instead of sliding sideways on the advancement ladder.

You need to put your time into something you feel proud to do and gives you sense of well being. Only you know what that is though. If you can earn some money from it then bonus.
 
Meh do what i do. Confirm to tick the right boxes but stir it up politely and efficiently so no-one realizes!

In my downtime at work and at home when I can be bothered I'm teaching myself to draw, mainly anime/manga. Never been interested in it but i find the drawing style fairly easy to follow.

In the meanwhile, saving cash for a trip to the states and a 290x once the aftermarket coolers are out :D
 
[FnG]magnolia;25177334 said:
I don't think passively-aggressively 'stirring up the system' whilst concentrating on your anime skills is a solid life approach.
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Well it just earn't me a grand and a half pay increase last month :) it's all about balance my weird friend :) (I am however looking for another job within the business as im wasted where i am)
 
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