I have an interview tomorrow and I'm feeling sick. I've had tough interviews before. My last one took all day and involved aptitude tests, roll plays and then a panel interview. I was nervous, but excitedly so and was offered a place (never actually got into post due to civil service recruitment freeze days later).
But this time, I feel awful. I'm trying to channel the nerves into something positive, but I can't. I'm starting to think maybe this interview isn't meant to happen. That the job I'm applying for isn't right for me.
It's another civil service position, but dramatically different to what I do at the moment. It's an IT apprentice roll, management grade (a two grade promotion). Getting here has been difficult: a competency bases application form, an online management test, followed by 3 online aptitude tests. I'm down to the final 6 for interview tomorrow.
It's an hour long and I have to start with a 10 minute presentation on ITSM; balancing budgets against purchasing new tech and the pitfalls (paraphrasing).
I've been reading about ITIL/ITSM for the last week and the more I read the more nervous and sick I feel. I just don't think I can pull it off.
I'm looking for excuses to cancel, but feel obliged to go (family etc). I feel like a coward.
To add some context I'm probably going to be made redundant in 18 months as my station is closing. I'll be getting a decent payout, over a years wages. I've been thinking about what to do and up until getting this interview I've been thinking more and more about going self-employed. Getting out of the civil service and getting a trade. Being my own boss.
I don't know why I'm writing this, or what I'm expecting people to say. I guess I just need to get it off my chest.
But this time, I feel awful. I'm trying to channel the nerves into something positive, but I can't. I'm starting to think maybe this interview isn't meant to happen. That the job I'm applying for isn't right for me.
It's another civil service position, but dramatically different to what I do at the moment. It's an IT apprentice roll, management grade (a two grade promotion). Getting here has been difficult: a competency bases application form, an online management test, followed by 3 online aptitude tests. I'm down to the final 6 for interview tomorrow.
It's an hour long and I have to start with a 10 minute presentation on ITSM; balancing budgets against purchasing new tech and the pitfalls (paraphrasing).
I've been reading about ITIL/ITSM for the last week and the more I read the more nervous and sick I feel. I just don't think I can pull it off.
I'm looking for excuses to cancel, but feel obliged to go (family etc). I feel like a coward.
To add some context I'm probably going to be made redundant in 18 months as my station is closing. I'll be getting a decent payout, over a years wages. I've been thinking about what to do and up until getting this interview I've been thinking more and more about going self-employed. Getting out of the civil service and getting a trade. Being my own boss.
I don't know why I'm writing this, or what I'm expecting people to say. I guess I just need to get it off my chest.