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This is why I don't drink. Takes me to a very dark place. Feeling silly now.

Apologies,
Fox.

(will now write out 100 times "I must not post while drunk")
 
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Who/what do you want to be?

Take steps towards becoming that. It won't happen overnight, but unless you ACTION what it is you want, then nothing will happen.

COURAGE... is what happens when you are afraid and decide to step it up, do what scares you. Courage is not doing things you are not scared of. So, take something you feel scared/weak at.. like talking to people and just do it. Start practising on strangers if it makes you more comfortable. Start up conversations on the bus/train/waiting in line in the shops for a few quick quips.

I should be more successful than I am... but that's down to me. I chose to be a lazy ass. I am now ACTIVELY taking steps to sort myself out with bad organisation/responsibilities. I have to remind myself of this.. eventually it will become routine. Everyone struggles with 'something', whether they want to admit it or not (or even realise it themselves)
 
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Frank Zappa said:
You say there ain't no use in livin'
It's all a waste of time
'n you wanna throw your life away, well
People that's just fine
Go ahead on 'n get it over with then
Find you a bridge 'n take a jump
Just make sure you do it right the first time
'cause nothin's worse than a suicide Chump

Now maybe you're scared of jumpin'
'n poison makes you sick
'n you want a little attention
'n you need it pretty quick
Don't wanna mess your face up
Or we won't know if it's you
Aw there's just so much to worry about
Now what you gonna do?
 
very drunk atm, take this with a pinch of wahtever.

what would you do, if you didn't believe in yourself? if you didn't think you had it in you to live a normal life? i've tried explaining this to others, but i'm **** at explaining. they brush it off as stupid talk.

right now i feel like i don't care for life at all. i don't see the purpose of my own existence, and i don't feel like i'm capable of even the most basic human functions. i can't even talk to people. i'm ready to give up. i'm a total coward so i can't even end my own misery.

i'm not fit to be alive. i'm lacking all human qualities. i'm a complete failure. this isn't worthy of your time, and i'm sorry for posting it. just another example of how much I fail at being a human being.

this is nothing for me in this world. i've believed that for years. i'd be so grateful for it all to end.

i just don't have what it takes. sorry for this bs.

How about laying off the booze for good and living life sober or at least cutting down?Your drinking seems problematic,even though I only 'know' you from this single post... :)
 
Going through a rough patch or always have been the case?
If it's the latter why not check up with your GP, perhaps you have clinical depression or you may be autistic.

Edit: If it's the social part that bothers you (ie being a loner), not being able to talk to people come with years of solitude, I went through that and completely forgot how to communicate with people, how to behave, was a blank page pretty much, due to work I was re-integrated with society and slowly got back to "being able" to hold a conversation. So...practice, we're social beings, put us in social situations and you will adapt.
 
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very drunk atm, take this with a pinch of wahtever.

what would you do, if you didn't believe in yourself? if you didn't think you had it in you to live a normal life? i've tried explaining this to others, but i'm **** at explaining. they brush it off as stupid talk.

right now i feel like i don't care for life at all. i don't see the purpose of my own existence, and i don't feel like i'm capable of even the most basic human functions. i can't even talk to people. i'm ready to give up. i'm a total coward so i can't even end my own misery.

i'm not fit to be alive. i'm lacking all human qualities. i'm a complete failure. this isn't worthy of your time, and i'm sorry for posting it. just another example of how much I fail at being a human being.

this is nothing for me in this world. i've believed that for years. i'd be so grateful for it all to end.

i just don't have what it takes. sorry for this bs.

Welcome to my world, however i'm just gonna plug on and expire one day.. don't see the point in suicide, things may get better, or not.
 
Stop self loathing, stop drinking for a start even when u sober up your anxiety will still be there. Then ironically you will drink again to ward off the anxiety, viscous circle. Alcohol does effect your mental state even after you initially stop. Then I suggest you disconnect your internet switch off your computer and go outside, anywhere. Go for a walk realize that its not all so bad when you look at the grand scheme of things, then look at what interests you, even if its something everyone else thinks is lame boring(everyone has some interest). Then just focus your time and energy on that! Also stop worrying about yourself, to be honest most people over exaggerate how much they think people take notice of their actions especially failures. So get over it and get out there.
 
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