Thank you all for your kind words
Well I've just been to the GP and didn't find it much help to be fair. He asked me what i wanted and i just don't know...my 2 options are literally carry on as i am and try and work through it, or medication...he's sent me away to think about the latter.
I cannot have anymore time off work as i was only entitled to 2 weeks statutory sick pay, i've asked about it, and its apparently on a rolling 12 month so it doesn't "renew" until the end of October. Time off work would be brilliant to just chill out a bit and try and work out what i want to do going forward. I am currently looking for another job, but i'm on a decent wage (all be it, on 10 hour days which don't help, and am then on call when i get home and over the weekends) and i can't also be having money worries, so i'm literally stuck between a rock and a hard place.
The wife has bought Ivy a Birthday card today...i don't know whether or not i want to also buy her one, i don't know what i'd write in one if i did get one, my head's just a mess after a bad day at work, a frustrating trip to the GP and the constant thoughts of the days to come pinging around in my head