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KELTICKNIGHT

KELTICKNIGHT

KELTICKNIGHT

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came home this morning to be greeted by our 3 dogs,one [sid] tebetane only 8 months old at beginning of driveway as they do,so had to feather clutch to drive very slow,barely moving as they would run around the car,but this morning would be different,pulled up to right side of house and thought dogs where away ,so picked up speed and suddenly felt a bump and scream ,and there was on ground ,blood comming fro is mouth,rear wheel when over his head,put him in car and went to vets,about 5 mins away,he died on way,it was the longist drive back l ever hhad,wife was in bits and crying,l wasnt much better,sid was got for wife ,but ended up being my 5 o clock shadow, follow me everywhere,when l come home from work,would go to bed and he would sleep with me,if l went to toilet,there he was,if l was on coutch watching tv,he would sleep on my chest,he was specilal,going over all day what l should have done or could have done.brought him home and buried him in front garden where he would look out at everything,as we live on side of hilly ground and have good view of sourrounding areas.good start to weekend
 
hard to put in words
grow on farm when l was a kid and used to seeing aniamls dye
as we dont have kids,our dogs are our kids
would be bad enough if someone else kill him ,but to do it your self is something else,we all gutted,wife hasn't stoped crying,cryed my self
house wasn't the same today,felt empty and quiet,even with other dogs,he brought life to the place,wont be the same
 
cheers all
wife taking it very hard
on 12 hour shift and its quiet which is worse,wife wanted me to take day off,couldnt get anyone to cover at short notice,not in mood for work and pritty gutted,didnt think l take it this hard,sid had more of hold on me that l thought
 
thanks all
some may find it hard to take in that you feel a loss of dog
the little guy ,was specially,and is still,some dogs have more something special than others,sid was a rare type of dog,wife just called me and house is dead with him not chasing and playing and chewing you laces on shoes,shes putting away his things so l dont see them in morning when l come home from work.l feel guilty at moment at what l could have done,it like we lost a kid,l know time will sort it out,at moment ,its far away for us,any place we go fora while will remind us of him,at beach ,he run away from water in fear of getting wet,will miss him sleeping on my chest when watching tv and chewing at my hand or shoes,far well my loved friend,will still talk to you sid when near your spot
 
its hard,its harder that your wheel was what kill sid,he was making his way to drivers door to greet me like he does,he alway did it from front,this time he was comming from back,he never see danger ,like young dogs do.will be hard weekend with out him,will say hi to him in morning at his spot where hes buried
 
will have to help wife to deal with it,even do l havent as l blame myself,l knowe it was accident,but still,still in sock over it,hasn't fully sunk in with us that it happened
 
was fitting a gate tomorrow with brother to keep sid off road as he walk to other side and didnt see any danger,was cutting trees down in garden with chainsaw and he sit in the way,draging branches with his teeth,when you go to toilet,he follow you and l say to him ,its ok sid,only place he didnt follow was shower as didnt like water
will miss the chats with him and he gruel back sometimes
 
zain said:
Feel bad to ask but how does the burial thing work exactly.....in your own back garden or something?

Very sad thing to happen, just because animals arent humans who talk doesnt mean they dont have feelings and cant cling to them so much :(
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dug a deep hole and had him rapped in the towel he was in when we picked him up,buried him where he like to lay when out in garden and sit on good days
 
cheers mickey
will take few to my head around it,friends are in shock
only makes it worse for me ,is my wheels killed him and l always watch for him,just not enough on this day,other dogs keep away from cars ,he didnt know the danger,as much as we told him off,he was young and learning
what a waste,won't be getting another dog for a while
have to get rid of yesterday and the scream of him in pain before he went into shock,still can hear it and see him bleeding from the head
will say hi to him at his spot this morning when l get home after shift
 
Nix said:
Look buddy, remember the good times you had, like him following you around. Don't try and remember the unfortunate accident.
By all means, be reminiscent if it helps you feel better, but there's no need to dwell on anything. It wasn't your fault, and I'm sure you would never ever have willingly done this.

RIP Sid.
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cheers
just need to put some distance in time in ,if he was hit by another car,be a little easler,but wasnt
will feel gulity for a time
will remenber a lot of good times and laughts
cheers all
 
cheers phil
thought will be with u
my wife was waiting for sid to wine this morning as he was early riser and he didnt and she cryed
when l came home,l sat at his grave and cryed and said sorry and to him like l used to
 
my wife sister is where we got sid 8 months ago and offered us her sister,we decided not to,wouldnt be fare on sids sister,would be like akinda of rebound and want time to heal with the loss of sid
 
cheers
at begining of our stairs which is all wood ,sid chew a corner,was going to snd it as its noticable,have decided to leave it as a another reminder that side lived here
wife wanted to dig up sid and give him final hug,l said we have to start getting used to it and morn ,remember all the good times
 
DannyDan said:
One of the most touching threads ever :(

RIP Sid, and I echo the comments of others on not beating yourself up over it. Sid is looking down from doggy heaven and wishing you were happy.

Here's a nice little verse that was posted in another thread a while back:
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`cheers for that mate
never thought a 8 month old pup comming dog would affect me and my wife this way
l guess that l was driver in our drive and at last 10- 15 feet would make his final place to be alive
every time l drive now l think of sid,l find it hard over last 2 days to drive and not shead a tear for him,to nite l missed him being my shadow,l have called other dogs tonite his name by accident
l know time will sort all this out
hardest thing a moment for me is the knowing l caused sid not to be alive to nite,at moment l have to find a way to forgive myself ,haven't figured that out
think this will be with me for awhile as well as comming to terms with the loss
 
finaly my wife is asleep,been a lot of crying tonite,ther is a dogie bone in sids bed and we dont have the heart to remove it and other dogs haven't touched it,the bigger of our 2 dogs is down as she played a lot with sid and sid sleeped on top of jaz,everywhere jaz went ,sid was there
more that us is missing sid
see jaz going over to sids grave and smelling it and then looking at me with sad brown eyes of hers
 
Bony Maloney said:
Bless you m8, and Sid. You have done nothing wrong, please don't beat on yourself. Go easy on yourself and greave for your loss.
When you feel to, this site has some good links:

http://www.pet-loss.net/links.html
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cheers for link
havent shed this much tears since my father died 28 years ago,it was first anger,then shock and loss and now will look to forgive myself somehow,was even thinking sell the car that rolled over him,dont know if that will help
at at abit of loss and will take it day by day,when l can drive the car and not cry or fell loss when driving it,then l know l have moved on ,will always remember for awhile l feel
 
we goingto take a drive in the car with other 2 dogs ,a beach,over 2 hrs away where we didn't bring sid as we need time to go to place we where with sid
we'll see how l feel next week about changing the car ,as changing it would be hard at moment,we need to get away from house and spmewhere we havent been for a while with sid and guess get used to not having with us on trips
 
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