Caporegime
Bit of back story, 18 months ago I was made redundant from a job and company that I loved. I had been there for 10 years and had worked my way from a 2nd/3rd line support guy through to Lead Network Administrator and finally IT Operations/Infrastructure Manager. I had built up a great team of guys whom I trusted wholeheartedly, and have remained good friends with since. From there I had to take what I could get (as I didn’t want to eat into my redundancy pay, that went into paying off a sizeable chunk of the mortgage), which meant stepping back into 3rd line support and specialising in a few key areas rather than using the full breadth of my skillset, the pay was good (very good in fact, more than I was earning previously for a lot less work and certainly less falling on my shoulders) but I was soon very aware that I was a) bored, and b) really not liking the move from a medium sized business to a gigantic American corporation (the office politics are something else, and getting anything done that isn’t they way the 50-60 year olds in the States have been doing it for 25 years is literally impossible, they don’t like change).
So I went on the hunt and found a role that on paper and at interview sounds to be 90% the same as my old role as IT Infrastructure Manager for a medium sized enterprise, however two weeks from my start date and I’m increasingly apprehensive. I KNOW I can do the job at hand, and I also know that it will likely lead to a position whereby I can likely get some of my old team back together, but I just can’t seem to shake this lingering fear of I guess the unknown. I know it’s irrational, but here I am.
Sure part of it is likely to be the thought of being back in probation, and part of it is that I know I will suddenly have a lot of responsibility again rather than just being a wage-slip worker drone, I guess I’ve become complacent even though I’m bored I’m also comfortable.
No real point to this thread as there’s not a lot that can be said or done, but at least in a few months time I can look back on this thread and hopefully laugh at my previous self for being a wee bit paranoid!
So I went on the hunt and found a role that on paper and at interview sounds to be 90% the same as my old role as IT Infrastructure Manager for a medium sized enterprise, however two weeks from my start date and I’m increasingly apprehensive. I KNOW I can do the job at hand, and I also know that it will likely lead to a position whereby I can likely get some of my old team back together, but I just can’t seem to shake this lingering fear of I guess the unknown. I know it’s irrational, but here I am.
Sure part of it is likely to be the thought of being back in probation, and part of it is that I know I will suddenly have a lot of responsibility again rather than just being a wage-slip worker drone, I guess I’ve become complacent even though I’m bored I’m also comfortable.
No real point to this thread as there’s not a lot that can be said or done, but at least in a few months time I can look back on this thread and hopefully laugh at my previous self for being a wee bit paranoid!
