Whats wrong with me?

[Freeman]

Just because a lot of people cry when they lose a loved one doesn't necessarily mean that it's the right way to go about it. Everyone deals with this type of situation in completely different ways. Just because you don't follow the norm doesn't mean you didn't care and love your gran.

 

[VIRII]

Am i made of stone or something? I am sorry I am rambling at the moment I just dont know what to say.

Does anyone understand what I am trying to say?

There is a theory that there are typically 7 stages of grief following a death.
The first is denial, a refusal to truely accept and deal with what has occurred.

http://www.proactivechange.com/psychotherapy/grief/stages.htm

I'd say that you are normal and that the reason you've not yet got past stage one is because you loved her so much.
I'm sorry for your loss and hope that you can come to terms with it quickly and painlessly.

 

[Greenlizard0]

 

[Pookie Bear]

Just because a lot of people cry when they lose a loved one doesn't necessarily mean that it's the right way to go about it. Everyone deals with this type of situation in completely different ways. Just because you don't follow the norm doesn't mean you didn't care and love your gran.

Thanks Freeman, that's exactly what I wanted to say, but couldn't find the words (busy packing so my brain isn't in gear!).

OP - there's nothing wrong with how you feel. I've stood impassive at a friend's funeral, then blubbed like a big baby at an episode of Scrubs. Sometimes crying just isn't the way it goes.

 

[Helium_Junkie]

I feel I should be sad or crying or showing some emotions

Nobody can tell you how to feel about something, you'll feel however you'll feel and that's all there is to it. If you aren't crying that doesn't make you heartless, it just means that aren't crying. You don't have to publicly bawl your eyes out to show that you'll miss her.

 

[DBT85]

as others have said, everyone deals with death in their own way. some clam up and get on with life, others mope around crying sayin how unfair it all is.

personally i have had 3 people close to me die, one was my grandfather, one was a mate at school who just collaped one day and one was a very close family friend and incidentaly the first person to take a picture of me after my birth.

in each and every case i have dealt with it the same way which suggests to me that its how i will always deal with death. i get the news and im shocked, after about 12 hours i break down crying for about 20 mins and then i pick myself up, realise there is nothing i can do about it and that i have to live my own life because i may not have one tomorrow. then im fine until the funeral where i'll cry again for a little and then once again pick myself up and get on with it.

i remember the dead of course, and at times i still have a few moments where "its not fair i want them back" but what can you do? i know when i die i dont want everyone moping around for weeks on end. i want them to get up and live whatever they have left.

 

[area51_for_psx]

Thanks for your kind words girls and guys. it seems I dont have anything to worry about. Ill just keep on going the way I am and see what happens, if anything.

Thanks everyone