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For the past 5 years I'd say, and about once a month, maybe sometimes less or more, I start thinking about death, about me not existing anymore, and it sends me into a massive, uncontrolled panic.
During those panic-moments I feel like I can't go on anymore, my heart feels like it's exploding, I sweat profusely and my brain goes haywire. I feel like banging my head against the floor to make it stop. It lasts for about 3 minutes.
That's the first time I've ever admitted any of that - and I wonder, what is going on? Are these panic attacks? Or am I losing my marbles? Because it worries me....does anyone else ever get anything like this?
I'm in my early 30's by the way. In a very sane and sensible job. And am a reasonably sane and sensible sort of chap.
For the past 5 years I'd say, and about once a month, maybe sometimes less or more, I start thinking about death, about me not existing anymore, and it sends me into a massive, uncontrolled panic.
During those panic-moments I feel like I can't go on anymore, my heart feels like it's exploding, I sweat profusely and my brain goes haywire. I feel like banging my head against the floor to make it stop. It lasts for about 3 minutes.
That's the first time I've ever admitted any of that - and I wonder, what is going on? Are these panic attacks? Or am I losing my marbles? Because it worries me....does anyone else ever get anything like this?
I'm in my early 30's by the way. In a very sane and sensible job. And am a reasonably sane and sensible sort of chap.