Haven't been able to find medical assistance (GPs I've tried didn't seem interested in helping) and I'm at a point where I just can't be bothered trying to help myself. I can't remember how many years it has been going on for, at least since my very late teens (which you'd assume was just childish hormones) to now at 27 uninterupted.
Makes me wonder how people cope with it when they react like I do for only a few weeks/months of it.
I feel to be taken seriously with depression also includes the ability to explain yourself/your issues/general feeling properly, which I can't do, thus doctors just fob me off.
I can't put into words anymore, it's has been almost a decade of this which have now skewed itself into pure lethargy. I've never been vocal, I keep everything to myself not by choice, I just can't make another person understand how I feel without making it sound stupid.
You also can't just make a short story from a decade worth of experiences, some of which I'm sure I buried for good reasons.
Sometimes I think to myself "There's worse off people out there" but then again, reality comes crashing down and it doesn't matter about then, I can't change how I feel with a few witty proverbs or motivational speeches, I don't think talking can help at all.
I should probably find a doctor to put me on some medication but I'm at the point where I can't even bring myself to deal with another doctor saying "Well you don't seem depressed" because I couldn't explain myself. Because it really puts me down when that happens.
Ah well, suck it up boy! If it wasn't for my few friends and the wonderful world of gaming and the internet I'd be worse off D:
Makes me wonder how people cope with it when they react like I do for only a few weeks/months of it.
I feel to be taken seriously with depression also includes the ability to explain yourself/your issues/general feeling properly, which I can't do, thus doctors just fob me off.
I can't put into words anymore, it's has been almost a decade of this which have now skewed itself into pure lethargy. I've never been vocal, I keep everything to myself not by choice, I just can't make another person understand how I feel without making it sound stupid.
You also can't just make a short story from a decade worth of experiences, some of which I'm sure I buried for good reasons.
Sometimes I think to myself "There's worse off people out there" but then again, reality comes crashing down and it doesn't matter about then, I can't change how I feel with a few witty proverbs or motivational speeches, I don't think talking can help at all.
I should probably find a doctor to put me on some medication but I'm at the point where I can't even bring myself to deal with another doctor saying "Well you don't seem depressed" because I couldn't explain myself. Because it really puts me down when that happens.
Ah well, suck it up boy! If it wasn't for my few friends and the wonderful world of gaming and the internet I'd be worse off D: