I've been smoking full time for about a year now. Before then it was the odd 4 or 5 down the pub, but I never smoked at home. Then I went on a camping trip and smoked 20 a day, basically because I could. After coming back from that trip, I would call myself an actual addict instead of a casual smoker. Weird how over the space of 3 days, I went from someone who had the odd few cigs for pleasure, to I'd say, a full blown addict. I've been on around 10 a day for a year, maybe 15 a day once or twice a week. I've said to myself on 2 or 3 occasions that I'd stop, but I never really wanted to, so trying to quit just never happened really.
This past week, I've had horrible wheezing and a nasty cough, possibly brought on by my hayfever. But one thing is for sure, smoking, whether being the cause of this or not, is definitley not helping. So I've decided to say enough is enough. I threw away half a pack of drum tobacco and some rizla at 4PM yesterday afternoon. I woke up feeling okay, but around an hour ago, I started to really crave. Went looking threw the bin to find the tobacco and rizla, then decided "What the **** are you doing? Going through a bin just for a cig? You're no better than a lowlife drug addict really"
I found the pack and tipped all the tobacco back into the bin and slammed the lid. I felt really good. I've just turned my back on something that has been holding me hostage for a year.
I do have a few concerns though, the main being, will I go the rest of my life with a part of me that always wants a cig? Will I be in a constant struggle with myself to lay off the fags? I don't want to tear myself apart that way. I want to quit and look on cigs as something that would be totally intolerable, never tempting again. Has anyone that has quit found this the case? Is it a constant battle, or does it slowly fade to the point where you just detest the things?
Also another thing that I will struggle with is that nearly all of my best mates smoke. Has anyone that has quit had this to deal with and how could you overcome this? I feel sitting down the pub with my mates, all lit up, is going to be a massive test that I just don't know I can handle.
Well I'm off to Watford now to grab that Allen Carr book, which will hopefully give me an extra kick up the backside. And instead of a pack of fags, I'm gonna go grab a coffee and a nice sandwich instead.
And the best of luck to anyone else who is struggling through!
This past week, I've had horrible wheezing and a nasty cough, possibly brought on by my hayfever. But one thing is for sure, smoking, whether being the cause of this or not, is definitley not helping. So I've decided to say enough is enough. I threw away half a pack of drum tobacco and some rizla at 4PM yesterday afternoon. I woke up feeling okay, but around an hour ago, I started to really crave. Went looking threw the bin to find the tobacco and rizla, then decided "What the **** are you doing? Going through a bin just for a cig? You're no better than a lowlife drug addict really"
I found the pack and tipped all the tobacco back into the bin and slammed the lid. I felt really good. I've just turned my back on something that has been holding me hostage for a year.
I do have a few concerns though, the main being, will I go the rest of my life with a part of me that always wants a cig? Will I be in a constant struggle with myself to lay off the fags? I don't want to tear myself apart that way. I want to quit and look on cigs as something that would be totally intolerable, never tempting again. Has anyone that has quit found this the case? Is it a constant battle, or does it slowly fade to the point where you just detest the things?
Also another thing that I will struggle with is that nearly all of my best mates smoke. Has anyone that has quit had this to deal with and how could you overcome this? I feel sitting down the pub with my mates, all lit up, is going to be a massive test that I just don't know I can handle.
Well I'm off to Watford now to grab that Allen Carr book, which will hopefully give me an extra kick up the backside. And instead of a pack of fags, I'm gonna go grab a coffee and a nice sandwich instead.
And the best of luck to anyone else who is struggling through!
she hasn't smoked since, nor wanted to.

