Hi all, I am not sure how I've ended up finding this forum as I am a nurse and health centre manager so work in a very different industry
MARMOT - Your story resonates with me very closely. I am also on a £60,000 + salary and I am very much considering a change in job and pay cut for what sounds like similar reasons. I have just experienced an episode of panic attacks and anxiety for which I had time off work and after reflecting on the situation and doing some deep soul searching, I have concluded that management is not for me! The cross team working and relying on others, project management, unhappy employees, staff shortages, deadlines, answering for finance deficits to the accounts managers, chairing and leading big board meetings in front of specialist consultants and other managers NUP - not for me. I too find the big meetings stressful, It takes me about 2 weeks to prep and it's all I can focus on in that time and yup, I too deliver a good meeting and get great feedback BUT to the detriment of my quality of life. Plus - I am a softy and you need a thick skin to be a manager, also, it's lonely at the top
I very much am missing the team work and camaraderie.
SO, I am going back to my roots and going to do what I trained to do and that is work directly with patients and YES it is going to be a pay cut, an eye watering MAJOR pay cut! However, the wage I was on was lovely at first but as the toll of the job and the stressors took over it became less relevant. For me I believe the rewards of helping people directly as a nurse and working in a happy, busy team are my motivating and driving factors. I think we all need to find what motivates and drives us and for some of us it isn't always money, and that's OK - it took me a year of torment to learn that about myself
I am not sure if this post will help anyone, but I do hope so. We must be kind to our selves! We must enjoy what we do, if we don't there is a chance it could become a monotonous heavy burden the effects of which can spill out into your personal and social life and effect your quality of life. If this is the case, or your mental health or other health is being affected, then take a step back, take a deep breath, do a bit of soul searching and reflection and weigh up if the salary/benefit is worth the risks.
Life is short and we have but only one go at it, be happy, be safe and be kind to yourselves and each other and finally be BRAVE, you do not know what exciting and wonderful opportunities may just be waiting around the corner, sometimes we just need to take the plunge!